As a young boy I always felt I was just play-acting a boy role but knew in my heart of hearts I was different. The first kiss I got from another boy told me, and confirmed, I was a natural femme!
I was always thought to be, by many others including my own family, a sissy and being made into a full sissy was very easy, but it was also very confusing for me. As a result, I learned sucking cock was the most natural thing I could do and wearing a dress and makeup was only natural, too!
Giving my first blow job felt wrong and maybe kind of sinful, at first, but it simply became more natural and more addictive and it became a part of my life. I felt that only real boys got these "things" from real girls! What did I know?
I always felt kind of calm while giving blow jobs but, as they unloaded their semen in me, I became very confused about what I just did! I was kind of surprised as their semen flooded my mouth and even just a bit embarrassed! They usually told me to swallow it, I did as I was told but it was still very confusing. I recall I rarely got a 'thank you' for my effort but I also never got more 'food for thought' than after it was done! Today, I see wearing a dress and makeup and giving blow jobs as merely very natural and one very minor part of my being a total femme. I'm also not so sure I'm gay!
I can't explain it, nor will I attempt to try, but I've never been happier or felt more natural than when I'm all dressed up. Giving a guy a blow job merely becomes the icing on my femme cake! Being naughty (which is largely dependent on who is!) just happens, it's a natural part of biology. While my first full opened mouth, "wet" kiss from a boy confirmed I was a member of the "weaker sex", giving him a blow job made me feel extremely feminine and when he came he actually gave me validation of my being a female!
Who knows? Perhaps I am a girl!
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Monday, July 8, 2013
Why do I chose to wear girl's shorts?
I'm asked by lots of men, women, and boys, this exact question every time I wear a pair of female short shorts. I have no pat answer for them but I admit I love how they feel on me and like the looks they usually get!
Most women don't ask me anything, they'd never be that crude! Some women are indifferent and just don't care. Other women, probably wives, generally don't care for me wearing fitted female spandex short shorts but they don't usually say anything either. They almost always look me over closely though, critically no doubt. I can easily read the disgust or intolerance of me in their eyes!
Younger boys are intrigued by me and simply wish to talk with me about being gay. Maybe they feel the same as I do and they're confused about their own sexuality? I'm glad to talk with them!
Men, usually in a group, ask me point blank if I'm a "sissy" or a "bitch" or do I "suck cock"? Am I a queer? Do I "like" men? It's not that they're interested in me! At least that's the impression I get from them. I usually don't answer those questions out loud and just walk away in silence. I do give them a demure look and a walk which clearly says, "What do you think?"
However, that's usually enough to set someone off in the group! The other men often restrain that man from beating me to within an inch of my life! He's usually much bigger and stronger than I am so I don't have any delusions of what might happen. I don't think he would be such a great threat on his own in a different venue, he's merely aggressive as most men, yet he feels he has to make a point to the group by beating me up! It seems that will satisfy making his point to the group. I'm usually told by the remaining men to just leave and reminded not to come back .. or else!
I'll leave the interpretation of "or else" to your imagination.
Such has been my life as a man who simply likes to wear well fitted female short shorts in public. I don't wear heels, dresses or makeup in public much any more (I've gotten older!) and my female intimates (my unmentionables) are still worn daily but under my man-drabs! I've been, sadly, put back in a closet of sorts.
Despite my experience with many insulting and dangerous occurrences I still shave and moisturize! I also now carry a TASER for my protection! So,why do I do like to wear female clothes? I don't know, maybe I am just a queer, or on the other hand, maybe I'm more than that!
Most women don't ask me anything, they'd never be that crude! Some women are indifferent and just don't care. Other women, probably wives, generally don't care for me wearing fitted female spandex short shorts but they don't usually say anything either. They almost always look me over closely though, critically no doubt. I can easily read the disgust or intolerance of me in their eyes!
Younger boys are intrigued by me and simply wish to talk with me about being gay. Maybe they feel the same as I do and they're confused about their own sexuality? I'm glad to talk with them!
Men, usually in a group, ask me point blank if I'm a "sissy" or a "bitch" or do I "suck cock"? Am I a queer? Do I "like" men? It's not that they're interested in me! At least that's the impression I get from them. I usually don't answer those questions out loud and just walk away in silence. I do give them a demure look and a walk which clearly says, "What do you think?"
However, that's usually enough to set someone off in the group! The other men often restrain that man from beating me to within an inch of my life! He's usually much bigger and stronger than I am so I don't have any delusions of what might happen. I don't think he would be such a great threat on his own in a different venue, he's merely aggressive as most men, yet he feels he has to make a point to the group by beating me up! It seems that will satisfy making his point to the group. I'm usually told by the remaining men to just leave and reminded not to come back .. or else!
I'll leave the interpretation of "or else" to your imagination.
Such has been my life as a man who simply likes to wear well fitted female short shorts in public. I don't wear heels, dresses or makeup in public much any more (I've gotten older!) and my female intimates (my unmentionables) are still worn daily but under my man-drabs! I've been, sadly, put back in a closet of sorts.
Despite my experience with many insulting and dangerous occurrences I still shave and moisturize! I also now carry a TASER for my protection! So,why do I do like to wear female clothes? I don't know, maybe I am just a queer, or on the other hand, maybe I'm more than that!
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Sunday, June 30, 2013
A thought on Cross Dressing
While "surfing the web" I stumbled upon an article about cross dressers by Ellen Sherman and wanted to re-tell it. It's really long so I didn't. You can Google it. It's about the 11 Misconceptions of Cross Dressers.
Ellen opens by saying every Fall, several hundred traditional husbands, fathers and businessmen come together in Provincetown for Fantasia Fair with parties, seminars and workshops exploring the thorny issue of how to buy the right wig and hide a 5 o'clock shadow with the foundation and blush-on. Heterosexual married men from suburbia with families are among those who cross-dress. What's going on? Apparently cross dressing is a much more common practice than most people would imagine.
I thought it complimented the blog "Femulate" by Stana, Stana. The bottom-line, speaking for myself, is you can't change a cross dresser's mind, they are the way they are, period! Some know themselves to be honest to goodness women. I know I do!
This information was originally published on 5/28/98, and can be viewed at; http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/articles/sex/xdress.html
It's lots of stuff you may already know and has many giant mental minds in it but despite that and its publication date, it hasn't changed anything in this civil and polite society for us. We're still seen as lowly trannies for the most part. Maybe that change will come soon, when 'soon' will be is any one's guess.
Just sayin'
Ellen opens by saying every Fall, several hundred traditional husbands, fathers and businessmen come together in Provincetown for Fantasia Fair with parties, seminars and workshops exploring the thorny issue of how to buy the right wig and hide a 5 o'clock shadow with the foundation and blush-on. Heterosexual married men from suburbia with families are among those who cross-dress. What's going on? Apparently cross dressing is a much more common practice than most people would imagine.
I thought it complimented the blog "Femulate" by Stana, Stana. The bottom-line, speaking for myself, is you can't change a cross dresser's mind, they are the way they are, period! Some know themselves to be honest to goodness women. I know I do!
This information was originally published on 5/28/98, and can be viewed at; http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/articles/sex/xdress.html
It's lots of stuff you may already know and has many giant mental minds in it but despite that and its publication date, it hasn't changed anything in this civil and polite society for us. We're still seen as lowly trannies for the most part. Maybe that change will come soon, when 'soon' will be is any one's guess.
Just sayin'
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Wearing a corset 24/7
I just read an article about a woman, an honest to goodness GG woman, who is 24 years old and has been wearing a corset for three years. She says her goal is to obtain the world's smallest waist. She has spent the last three years eating, sleeping and living in a corset, and her waist is a mere three inches smaller than when she started. Sad!
It's a foolish thing to do when coupled with the cited potential medical problems, and there are plenty. However, I see no reason to stop sleeping in my Squeem! It's a perplexing psychological phenomena, people who are so entrenched in their own self-perception, like I am in my desire to be a woman, I'm just a man who merely chooses to present as a woman and all that entails.
I'm not much different from the majority of men who wear a dress and makeup for other men and I do that in order to get fucked. So, does that make me gay? I think not but I may be wrong!
I do feel my movements and actions are more feminine when I wear a heavily boned cloth corset, not to mention the short skirts and high heels! And, when I check my reflection in my hall mirror every morning, I believe I also look just a bit sexy! All the male admirers I "date" would have me be naughty for them anyway and since that's what I see as my major female goal in my trans-life, it's a no-brainer!
I know my oral desire can easily be turned into a simple fixation but I don't have a pussy and it just happens to be my preference! I enjoy my sexual interactions with men and I like the taste of their semen. I simply love making love to a man including being fucked by him! I feel we should leave well enough alone.
Se la vie!
It's a foolish thing to do when coupled with the cited potential medical problems, and there are plenty. However, I see no reason to stop sleeping in my Squeem! It's a perplexing psychological phenomena, people who are so entrenched in their own self-perception, like I am in my desire to be a woman, I'm just a man who merely chooses to present as a woman and all that entails.
I'm not much different from the majority of men who wear a dress and makeup for other men and I do that in order to get fucked. So, does that make me gay? I think not but I may be wrong!
I do feel my movements and actions are more feminine when I wear a heavily boned cloth corset, not to mention the short skirts and high heels! And, when I check my reflection in my hall mirror every morning, I believe I also look just a bit sexy! All the male admirers I "date" would have me be naughty for them anyway and since that's what I see as my major female goal in my trans-life, it's a no-brainer!
I know my oral desire can easily be turned into a simple fixation but I don't have a pussy and it just happens to be my preference! I enjoy my sexual interactions with men and I like the taste of their semen. I simply love making love to a man including being fucked by him! I feel we should leave well enough alone.
Se la vie!
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
The Quick Reference to the Diagnostic Criteria From the DSM-4-TR
From one poster on Amazon: Finally, someone recognizes that there are non-professionals who need to use the DSM IV-TR. I am a family law attorney and have to deal with forensic psychological evaluations or psychological issues in my divorce cases, but I have no mental health training.
Honest and interesting.
From another: My father was a psychologist. Amateur diagnoses were the bane of his existence and professional misdiagnoses are just as dangerous. I can see why. I have been unable to recognize people I know from the vague descriptions in the literature. It's totally irresponsible to lead people to believe that any layman can simply pick up the DSM and make diagnoses and recommend a course of therapy!
Insane, yet it happens!
Yet another comment about this book was, In the meantime, making diagnoses from the DSM is not only a physician's role it's his right!"
This comment causes me to offer, with no offense intended, apparently not that much is known about American mental health. Again, no offense is intended, but clinicians who are not doctors but still learning students in colleges (lay-persons) are future psychologists, future social workers, future psychiatric nurse practitioners, etc., and all are taught to use the DSM for making diagnoses. They are taught they have a responsibility to do so, which they do, then take that teaching as a "legal" right to recommend therapies! This says a lot for inexperience and students of academia.
According to the ethics of the field, and in concert with my own opinions, to make mental health diagnoses, let alone prescribe or recommend therapies, according to the DSM and criteria contained within it, is a joke. IMO, no one should use it because its methods are not "written in stone" and, in my further opinion, this book can be quite harmful!
Point in case, I've been asked hundreds of times by men who are married to give them meaningless, albeit quickie, blow jobs while their wives are away, AND we should not talk about it, ever! So, does that mean I have a mental illness and they're merely taking advantage of it? Who is right and who is wrong?
I see myself as a person who loves to dress like a female, wear makeup, and love men in the one way I know best how! But because I'm a known femme and oftentimes comply with requests, I have to ask myself, should I continue? It's well known I'm a male to female transvestite and I thoroughly enjoy sucking men's cocks to climax, I also happen to be thought of as a sex-starved horny bitch by both these same men and their women! Bottom line, I don't think I'm behaving badly as a woman and neither do my admirers!
Without question YOU should be allowed to be the kind of woman YOU want to be!
Honest and interesting.
From another: My father was a psychologist. Amateur diagnoses were the bane of his existence and professional misdiagnoses are just as dangerous. I can see why. I have been unable to recognize people I know from the vague descriptions in the literature. It's totally irresponsible to lead people to believe that any layman can simply pick up the DSM and make diagnoses and recommend a course of therapy!
Insane, yet it happens!
Yet another comment about this book was, In the meantime, making diagnoses from the DSM is not only a physician's role it's his right!"
This comment causes me to offer, with no offense intended, apparently not that much is known about American mental health. Again, no offense is intended, but clinicians who are not doctors but still learning students in colleges (lay-persons) are future psychologists, future social workers, future psychiatric nurse practitioners, etc., and all are taught to use the DSM for making diagnoses. They are taught they have a responsibility to do so, which they do, then take that teaching as a "legal" right to recommend therapies! This says a lot for inexperience and students of academia.
According to the ethics of the field, and in concert with my own opinions, to make mental health diagnoses, let alone prescribe or recommend therapies, according to the DSM and criteria contained within it, is a joke. IMO, no one should use it because its methods are not "written in stone" and, in my further opinion, this book can be quite harmful!
Point in case, I've been asked hundreds of times by men who are married to give them meaningless, albeit quickie, blow jobs while their wives are away, AND we should not talk about it, ever! So, does that mean I have a mental illness and they're merely taking advantage of it? Who is right and who is wrong?
I see myself as a person who loves to dress like a female, wear makeup, and love men in the one way I know best how! But because I'm a known femme and oftentimes comply with requests, I have to ask myself, should I continue? It's well known I'm a male to female transvestite and I thoroughly enjoy sucking men's cocks to climax, I also happen to be thought of as a sex-starved horny bitch by both these same men and their women! Bottom line, I don't think I'm behaving badly as a woman and neither do my admirers!
Without question YOU should be allowed to be the kind of woman YOU want to be!
Friday, April 19, 2013
The Boston deal
I wish to convey my condolences to all those people who lost limbs and those who lost their lives and their survivors.
My fear is that this is going to become more common in future days. It is unfathomable.
While it may not help you, be assured those who died are in a better place. Again, my heartfelt sympathies.
My fear is that this is going to become more common in future days. It is unfathomable.
While it may not help you, be assured those who died are in a better place. Again, my heartfelt sympathies.
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