tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74691713501899525382024-02-08T11:15:26.802-08:00T-girl in a closetMy story, my life experience.Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.comBlogger68125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-46326085012153582122015-06-28T04:27:00.000-07:002015-06-28T04:27:55.611-07:00NikeThere are more than
just a few people (both cis-men and cis-women) who say men like me are merely
confused.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I MUST be gay because I let
men fuck me and I like wearing women's clothes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Thanks for that mind-set goes to Madison Avenue and the socialization
process!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Apparently we've all taken the
training well!<br />
<br />
I enjoyed wearing
women's clothes at a very young age and Cross Dressed although I don't know
why.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Perhaps I just "thought"
I was a female or it was the fact I grew up in a "liberal" city, San Francisco.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What I know was that as soon as I put female
clothes on I was strongly attracted to them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I grew to absolutely love their tightness not to mention the shoes!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I matured I put on some makeup and the
moment I saw "me" reflected in a mirror I knew I was born to be
female!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was a woman for all practical
purposes and intense.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was immediately
convinced!<br />
<br />
I know there's more
to being a woman than just getting fucked but it's now a kind of badge of honor for
me to get fucked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It may be said that
I'm just a queer because of my desire to have sex with men but my wearing a dress does
not just mark me as a "femme", I simply enjoy sex with men!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I still don’t have a clue as to why I enjoy
acting like a female but who really knows?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I say, who really cares?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just get
over it!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I merely do what most genetic
girls (GG) of this world do for most cis-males in private anyway!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Does sucking a man or boy's cock mean I'm a queer or a girl?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Whatever!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Life really is too short to be concerned about the many "whys"
and many smarter people than me already wrote about that stuff! I merely have a public education.<br />
<br />
It is through my
"desired" sexual preference for men, who've used me (or abused me!)
as a woman, that I've gotten another unique impression.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I've gathered men, most men both "straight" or gay, in this polite society do not wish to make babies!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>To me, at least that justifies the need for me to be a bottom!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It's obvious to everyone I can't pro-create!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> Being a queer </span>could be my honest role but I'm still
seen as a trans-woman by society in general because of my choice of dress.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>While I say 'whatever' I also know the murder
rates of trans-gendered women keeps on going!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Why is that so do you suppose?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Why doesn't this society simply allow men who don't wish to create
babies hook-up with transgendered women?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The men who "think" they're women (like me) and are willing to
behave like a woman (like me) can't procreate in the first place and we're willing to let men fuck
us!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So what's all the fuse about?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>True, all MTF trannies aren't looking to get
fucked by a man but I'm citing the many MTF's (like me) who do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So again I ask, why is that not possible?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In a word, it has nothing to do with
"passing" (and to be honest some of us don't!) but it has everything to do with the
socialization process.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I simply enjoy looking
sexy as a woman (I'm a femme) and I want men, all men, to want me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Period!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Perhaps there's a good reason why things are the way they are but I
don't buy it!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In order to address the
murder issue in another way perhaps it is because of the ability to pass so
well that many MTF Cross Dressers have naturally.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>IMO it's the unspoken lie a "fake"
woman allows a real man to believe long before they copulate.<br />
<br />
Allow me to share. Speaking for myself,
I have testicles and a dick (although small!) and present myself as a woman, therefor, I think of myself as a "fake"!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I believe I'm "fake" only because I
need falsies to enhance my breasts, I need a waist cincher to enhance my waist,
I use makeup to make me look like a woman and my hips lack!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In short, it takes more than a little effort to make me a woman but the
facts are what they are! Perhaps I am a queer but I'm no molester!<br />
<br />
But what-ever!<br />
<br />
IMHO, no one enjoys
admitting they made a mistake and that is especially true when it comes to
a sex partner!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When a man passes as a woman 24/7
well, it can lead to confusion!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not for
the man in the dress but for the "true man" involved.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I seriously doubt anybody likes that and the
lie simply leads to other things, like murder.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Not many people enjoy being lied to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>To avoid this confusion (and the subsequent murder) I tell all men who are interested in me up-front
that I'm a boy or a man in a dress (I do dress to attract men!) and surprisingly
most tell me they know what I am and they're still interested despite the
fact I just told them I'm a "fake"!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>IMO, they desperately want to fuck something and I merely represent that
something!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Some of the people who say
that I have "low morals" are gay men but it's especially
cis-women who are significant others or wives!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I guess that's true of course, but again I say, so what?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know I get lots of "dates"!<br />
<br />
Most men I've met
have large "man dicks" (including cross dressed transvestites) and most women have smaller dicks called clitorises and they
also have a vagina and all the associated plumbing, I have neither. That's simple biology and a
fact again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Women (genetic women)
can catch an STD from any man the same as I can but the main difference between
a real woman and me is they can become pregnant and I can't!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Every man who becomes a "date" of
mine, including the men who pick me up as I window shop, knows that about me
immediately because I tell them, I'm a
"fake"!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It's simply amazing to
me to think men of all kinds (straight and otherwise) still want a meaningless blow job or to have sex with me!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So what does that say about this civil
society?<br />
<br />
Also noteworthy, the
same as a genetic woman, "dates" I do get do not want to be seen talking with me afterward so while his large cock may hurt my
"man-pussy" or it chokes me, I still want to be a woman!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Who knows what that says! Maybe after all is said and done
I'm not Trans at all, I am just a queer who wears a dress!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Again I say, so what, what diff does it make? Life's too sort to
dwell on all the whys and wherefores, I have a brief time to live my life!<br />
<br />
Nike has a saying,
"Just do it!", I recommend you follow that advice and you won't be
sorry you did!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-27457570435337113452015-06-03T12:28:00.002-07:002015-06-03T12:28:28.558-07:00Caitlyn Jenner
I'm proud of
her!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>She came out as a woman despite
having all that fame and money as a man.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I'm actually kind of jealous of her.<br />
<br />
I see that many in
the Trans-world and beyond don't care much for Caitlyn, she has too much
resource they say.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Too much cash and all
to help her transition.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Well, she did
transition and she did so at a time in her life that she felt was appropriate.<br />
<br />
I say, damn the
torpedos, full speed ahead!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You go girl!
<br />
Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-17226234682412136682015-05-27T12:32:00.000-07:002015-05-27T12:32:36.456-07:00Being a girl 11:10 AM<br />
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There are many, many
men throughout the world who wish to be female but there are just as many who
only wish to look like a female, both types are very different in their
respective approach to men but they both live in the "closet".<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Still, they have no clue as to why they feel
the way they do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know because I lived
my entire life growing up in such a closet!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel I'm Transgendered.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Lots of male to female (MTF) cross dressers I
knew wanted to be female and most begin their female lives cross dressing at a
very young age (pre-sex) and they think getting fucked in any way by a man is
disgusting!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I cross dressed in private
to express my feeling of being a girl but I don't know where my feelings to be
a female came from!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do know they were
very strong and I was attracted to boys much more than girls!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With boys I was "made" to do things for them as a girl (but I was quite willing) but with girls I just felt like a
friend.<br />
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Will wonders never cease?<br />
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Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-30622823884613689692014-07-09T09:45:00.000-07:002014-07-09T09:45:38.684-07:00I admit I'm a bit vexed by a commentI read many blogs on-line and I must admit I'm a bit vexed by a comment I read the other day. The commenter says he has many gay people as friends but goes on to say they're "all wrong", they need help", and are "walking evil".<br /><br />Evil? That single comment shouted volumes about that guy to me!<br /><br />I read further and after reading I know I would not have the where-with-all to try and change his mind in any meaningful way. I also would have no desire to regardless if I had the smarts or motivation or not! If we were to meet at a party, whether I be in man-drab or colorful feminine drag, I think I would have wimped out and simply changed the subject. Failing that, I would simply walk away as I certainly would not want to hear any of his diatribe! He may be merely talking about gay people.<br /><br />My journey to become me (a cross dresser) was really not all that tough and arduous. I don't want anyone to think too poorly of me but when I was 10 or so, before it made sense, I routinely put on makeup and wore dresses in secret. From what I saw looking back at me in the hall mirror I made a very convincing woman! That woman eventually became the real and honest me. As time went by and I gained experience from men and my dresses became sinfully short and my makeup became very heavy. They all told me they liked me looking this way! I would do that for them, among other things, and afterwards freshen my makeup and go to rather questionable places and show myself off. I was clearly asking for it! In my own awkward way I was trying to prove I was just as good as any "real" woman out there and I went to obvious places to get that proof.<br /><br />No matter where I went or what I 'looked' like there always seemed to be a man to oblige me, usually in the dark, but he didn't seem to mind leaving a total man-mess on my face! I learned a lot about men then! I was rarely spoken to after the deed was done, rarely thanked, and they're all way bigger "down there" than I ever was! It's been that way my whole life. The biggest thing I learned was that most men are simply eager and they wish to please us but they don't want to talk about it! Ever!<br /><br />During the process of playing the "fallen woman" I learned even more about my true self. I learned I absolutely loved feeling weak and the weaker men made me feel the better! It was also strange because I also felt much more feminine! I fantasised to have a train of sixteen men pulled on me at the same time (looked forward to it actually!) where I would be helpless to stop them. I became a total cum-whore. I even advertised in the personals I would do adult male porno parties as a female! I was only able to do a few but I simply didn't catch anything more than crabs, I can't explain that except to say I was very lucky I didn't catch a life altering STD! During sex I am simply shameless about my playing a woman and I have lab tests run today to make certain my sexual health is clear!<br /><br />Do not sell yourself short, YOU are EXACTLY the break you've been looking for! If you can not relax or express yourself where you are, leave! Get out of there! Find a place of your own regardless if that turns out to be your car or a run down apartment on the bad side of town. You can become a woman! Eventually, you will find a place that allows you to be yourself, even if that's just you naked behind closed doors, we can't all 'pass'!<br /><br />It's taken a molester, the San Francisco criminal court system, many shrinks, the loss of my biological family and a few other bumps along my journey to become me, but I can finally and firmly say I accept me as I am. By the way, most of the men who meet me also accept me. Now I can half jokingly say, I'm a slow learner but I've surely learned! Hindsight being 20-20, I'm sorry to say it took me so long to accept me as I truly am because I wasted a lot of my life living in a closet and hiding! True, it's been a long slug and, mainly because of society, I still do not have stability in my life.<br /><br />In fairness, I've not become that free spirit we all read about in the "ever after" books. As far as I'm concerned those kinds of stories are extremely rare or outright fairy tales and are just made up to make us feel better. I'm a grown adult now and I make myself feel better! I was duped by society and corrected by my biological family, I was married for many years and created a family of my own. Today, my wife and I are divorced and the children have no difficulty accepting me but they do have a problem accepting my ideals. I have moved out and become somewhat independent but still without the stability, lmao! At 62, I fiercely believe that stability is not going to be forth-coming from this polite society any time soon, yet it doesn't seem to matter either.<br /><br />Allow me to share this; after my divorce I was fortunate enough to be the "feminine" roommate to four men. Yes, they knew about me and yes, we did copulate every night. They took turns with me! One of these guys, however, had the mental maturity of a 12 year old boy, lmao! He would berate me because he wanted me to dress as I did and stand on a corner and "rent" myself out! I was to become his gay cross dressed prostitute and oddly enough he actually expected me to comply! I told him I was to be his live-in sex doll, not to provide for him! He moved out because he said he didn't want to live with a queer who couldn't also be a f**king whore! I say "good riddance"! We eventually lost that house because of a death, otherwise things are OK.<br /><br />That you may very well represent THE break you've been looking for I would fervently recommend some caution! I have to admit I'm not so sure that my cross dressing will ever be a great source of knowledge for any one, I only know that as I grew up my feeling of being female was a source of great confusion for me. Between my family, my friends and societal norms, coupled with my own mixed up sexual feelings, I made plenty of mistakes! But I also learned! After many years of in-fighting with myself I simply came to accept who and what I was, me! I can not take full credit, however, for it was through my personal growth and an experience I had as a young boy that I gained my current perspective!<br /><br />While I agree that it is too bad about the thinking evolution of our "civilized society", IMO it’s actually kind of sad really, I originally hoped to assist in the advancement of human evolution and make a difference but I'm afraid I gave up on my plan to re-educate the masses long ago. It seems our “civil society” has not made much progress since Christ cleared the temple! I firmly believe that discrimination of any person by any other person, regardless of the reason, is always not good! Even "wrong thinking people" have a story and they deserve to at least be heard! All prayers are answered, sometimes the answer is no. Life IS finite!<br /><br />I'm flattered to be considered a "female"!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-86841894928678375282014-03-28T07:36:00.000-07:002014-03-28T07:36:03.765-07:00Well, the story never seems to end because it's back in the news!This time the story reads; DOJ Trains Cops to Work With Transgender People. WASHINGTON, March 27, 2014, By ERIC TUCKER Associated Press (AP)<br /><br />From the published report:<br /><br />The Justice Department launched a program Thursday to train local police departments to better respond to transgender individuals, a population authorities say is disproportionately harmed by violence.<br /><br />The new initiative is aimed at helping police identify hate crimes and build trust with a type of community that law enforcement officials say is too often reluctant to report crimes.<br /><br />"It's clear that such a training is as necessary as it is overdue," Associate Attorney General Tony West said at a ceremony unveiling the program. "Because too often, in too many places, we know that transgender victims are discouraged from reporting hate crimes and hate violence due to their past negative interactions with and perceptions of law enforcement."<br /><br />The training effort is being overseen by the department's Community Relations Service, which was established under the Civil Rights Act of 1964 (this is my emphasis, 1964!) and works with communities to prevent and respond to hate crimes.<br /><br />The initiative comes as police departments face scrutiny over their responsiveness to crimes against transgender people. In Washington, D.C., for instance, Police Chief Cathy Lanier acknowledged this year in response to a task force's report that the department needed to do more to build trust with the city's transgender community.<br /><br />Deputy Attorney General James Cole said it was unacceptable that transgender people don't report crimes against them "based on the community's fears about law enforcement's support and perceptions."<br /><br />"This is not a result that can or will be tolerated by the Department of Justice, and it runs counter to the very role your community public safety officials want to promote," Cole said.<br /><br />He cited a national transgender discrimination survey published in 2011 in which large percentages of transgender individuals reported having attempted suicide, having been physically assaulted and having lost a job for bias-related reasons.<br /><br />The Community Relations Service has regional offices around the country that will offer the training to police departments. The lesson plans includes suggestions for confronting bullying in schools as well as lists of do's — such as asking a person for his or her preferred gender pronoun — and don'ts, such as using the term "transvestite" or asking whether the person has had sex-change surgery.<br /><br />Tiq Milan, a senior media strategist and spokesman for GLAAD, said the training program was a step toward correcting a relationship between police and transgender individuals that is fraught with mistrust.<br /><br />"Cops will deal with trans folks and assume because you're trans, then in some kind of way you've caused this kind of violence on you," he said.<br /><br />Harper Jean Tobin, who as policy director at the National Center for Transgender Equality helped design and model the program, also said she thought it was a good idea but cautioned that training by itself would not mend the relationship. She said there was more work that needed to be done in areas such as guaranteeing respect for transgender people who are taken into custody or being questioned by police.<br /><br />"You can't train your way out of this problem. It's one piece of the puzzle. It's one tool that we can use," she said. Really?<br /><br />Back in 2013, this same story was run in many news agencies under different titles. One such story took place in Connecticut City entitled; No Bias Against Transgender Cop. NEW HAVEN, Conn., March 27, 2014, By JOHN CHRISTOFFERSEN (AP) Associated Press<br /><br />From the Associated Press:<br /><br />An investigation by a Connecticut city has found no evidence that a transgender police officer was subject to discrimination or a hostile work environment.<br /><br />Francesca Quaranta (try Google) was born male and had hormone therapy to become female. She decided to tell her colleagues in 2012 (2012!) about the change and tried to slowly adjust her appearance to allow for a gradual transition. She said she was ordered to remove her earrings even though female officers have been allowed to wear them. She initially was allowed to wear a wig but was later told it was not in compliance with policy and was disciplined in writing. This was published near the end of the article.<br />
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She disputed an account by the city that, [she] Quaranta, did not want to wear one of the wigs approved by the chief and wore unapproved wigs and that she wore hoop earrings on patrol in violation of the rules. She said she also faced more scrutiny of her work performance with supervisors questioning her response time even to non-emergencies, such as an illegally parked car.<br /><br />The city denies her allegations saying any discipline or warnings were warranted and the mayor said the city is looking forward to Quaranto returning to work as soon as possible.<br />
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Odd he would use the male pronoun but nothing new here, and I also have to ask; Returning?<br /><br />Middletown Police Officer Quaranta has alleged that while her colleagues were initially supportive she began to face hostility from some and their treatment had become so bad she went on paid leave. She filed a complaint last year with the state Commission on Human Rights and Opportunities, which is still pending. Meanwhile, city human relations officials investigated her claim and now say they found no evidence of discrimination.<br /><br />"While officer Quaranta's transgender transition is a new experience for her and the Middletown Police Department, it is believed that the department is handling her transition in a professional manner," Faith Jackson, the city's human relations director, wrote in a letter to the mayor.<br /><br />Mayor Daniel Drew said he and Police Chief William McKenna made it clear Quaranta was to receive equal treatment and supervising officers received training on the issue. The mayor said a sergeant also was given a 10-day unpaid suspension over a remark he made about her. (NOTE: the remark was not made public!) "We've taken this very seriously from day one and will continue to take it seriously," he said.<br /><br />Quaranta said Thursday she disagrees with the city's findings and was not surprised, saying officials want to protect the city from liability. "I'm hoping that the state of Connecticut is much more open minded and actually looks at documents and actually listens to what I'm saying," Quaranta said.<br /><br />A Middletown police officer since 2004, (since 2004! that's almost 8 years at the time she filed!) she said she loves the job but isn't sure she can return to the department. "I think the harassment will just continue," she said. "Actually I think it will be much worse this time."<br /><br />From me; I read about this on-line and thought I'd add my "spin".<br /><br />The word "express" or the term "expression" with regard to sex does not appear in any law or policy to date. Not one, none! Laws prohibiting general discrimination or bullying or out-right physical attacks are all over the place, but not one of these laws says anything based on gender expression. IMO, I don't have to wonder why that is!<br /><br />Gender "expression" is a unique can of worms, it is very different from plain vanilla gender and is seen as fraut with problematic notions. IMO, anti-discrimination laws established in most US cities and states do not protect people from anything anyway because laws do not protect, period! That would be like saying, more pencils will make smarter people. Some how I don't think so!<br /><br />These anti-discrimination laws merely add an additional layer to an already established law which in most cases carries its own penalty. That most people who would violate the original law already know of the penalties and layers of the "new" law but they simply don't care. Murder of a human by use of a golf club does not enhance the plain murder law, it merely adds another layer to it. Murder is merely an example I use and not meant to be representative of all humans, but murders still happen! Being a decidedly femme dressed in any female outfit (let alone a sexy one!) won't stop a guy, or guys, from leading me into an alleyway under pretense and they may not have my best female abilities in mind!<br /><br />Laws, regardless of how they're worded, will not change a person's heart, in short, they will NOT amend an attitude nor will they positively impact upon negative mind sets. Martin Luther King, Jr. is quoted as saying, "Morality cannot be legislated, but behavior can be regulated. Judicial decrees may not change the heart, but they can restrain the heartless." I would have to disagree with the good doctor King! I would say ask the untold number of cross dressers killed every day. That's a very long list and it's extremely sad! It's a waste! I am a mtf cross dresser and I dress in a fashion that "asks for it", I've experienced being put in a hospital because I received a very brutal beating!<br /><br />It's also my humble opinion that Barry McGuire said it best; "legislation alone, won't bring integration." As Cross Dressers, of either sex, we can not expect anyone to be our advocates. Consequently, even non-expressive gay people face one form or another of discrimination in nearly every aspect of their daily lives. I know I face a type of discrimination every time my landlord looks at me simply because he suspects I might be gay and willing to do him! IMO, it would probably only embolden him were I to dress in 'sex kitten' attire at the time he saw me. FYI, when I go shopping everyone seems to know I'm gay.<br /><br />A new policy was implemented by USAID and represents an impressive step forward. But because the policy is not mandatory and does not have the full force of the law behind it, employees in organizations contracting with USAID have absolutely no remedy if the policy is violated. Kudos, I guess, to USAID for having such a policy but a policy which is NOT mandatory? This leads me to question what good is it to have it? To simply be able to say you've got such a policy? At the risk of coming across as bitter, and by their own admission, I think USAID has convinced me they're bought and paid for.<br /><br />In order to protect the rights of transgendered people (trans-gendered means cross sexed persons in this post) the National Center for Transgender Equality (NCTE) and the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force (NGLTF) continues to urge President Obama to issue an executive order prohibiting all federal contractors from discriminating on the basis of sexual orientation AND gender identity. Federal employers! Nothing is aimed at the civilian world! People are people and orientation and identity does make a difference regardless of where you are!<br /><br />It is also thought that the repeal of "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" is a first step in the right direction but may I remind you that we are talking about a community of gays and lesbians in the military only, NOT persons who feel the need to represent as other than "established" sex, to wit; cross dressers! Cross dressing for either a male or a female is considered a crime, especially in the military and civilian worlds, as it might be used as a mere disguise, a way to change one's appearance. It does change one's appearance and how one chooses to express one's-self, IS affected and, unfortunately that is negatively.<br /><br />Interestingly, the NCTE and NGLTF also released a finding from a report back in 2001, it was entitled; Injustice at Every Turn. Very nice title, BTW, and while this report confirmed the pervasive and severe discrimination faced by trans-GENDERED people, it did NOT investigate the situation for those who simply choose to "express" as the opposite sex. Out of a small sample of nearly 6,500 TRANS-PERSONS the report found they experienced high levels of discrimination in fields of employment, housing, health care, education, legal, and even in their own families! And you thought is was just you, silly! The full report can be found online, just Google it.<br /><br />I think of this as a kind of discrimination in itself, apparently after many years very little has changed within this civil and polite society. People!<br /><br />Transgender people may also have additional identities that affect the types of discrimination they experience. Simply said, experiencing discrimination of any kind adds significantly to psychological stresses and often includes people from sundry racial, ethnic, or religious and minority backgrounds. Often times individuals are left to wonder whether they were discriminated against solely because of their socio-cultural identity, their race or some other thing, or was it JUST their gender EXPRESSION? Possibly it may have been a combination!<br /><br />So, how can one possibly know? Do you ask? Do you dare? Do you even bother or do you just accept the discrimination and move on? I merely accept it and move on! I'm sure none of those questions will ever be asked and needless to say never answered.<br /><br />Worth noting, and also according to that same study from 2001, while discrimination is quite pervasive for many trans-gender people the intersection of anti-transgender bias and persistence against it, is also where racism is especially severe. African American transgendered individuals fare far worse than all other transgender populations examined. Combined! All! I find that very note worthy indeed, and I also find it quite confusing in view of the fact most of my "admires" are men of color. Interesting!<br /><br />The report goes on to say many transgender people, regardless of race, are the targets of hate crimes (duh!) but there are simply no laws addressing the issue of the victim being crossed dressed and expressing the opposite to how they were born when the "hate" happens. I guess a "transgender person" is considered a special victim of a unique and subtle form of hate! This kind of discrimination usually includes everything from a disapproving look, an extreme or mean or loud verbal attack, a statement about specific body parts, or the typical out-right physical attack. The report claims this kind of discrimination usually produces some level of discomfort. Discomfort? I mean, honestly, say it ain't so!<br /><br />It's my opinion that violent people who engage in this type of behavior are usually nothing less than invasive, vulgar, total bruts, so, where does it all end? My guess is when general society decides it ends, I don't recommend you hold your breath. While my saying, 'Be the kind of woman YOU want to be!' sounds good, it's not going to happen any time soon within this current society and it's not going to happen without strife.<br /><br />We are all humans but I am the kind of human who clings to the idea mind-sets will eventually change, hopefully sooner rather than later. I know I can't speak for others but I clearly don't have a death wish and I do feel I'm female!<br /><br />Please leave a comment or email me at Billie.TV5@gmail.com, let me know what YOU think.<br />Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-82428813453145726372013-12-31T07:19:00.000-08:002013-12-31T07:19:19.473-08:00My 'about me'Like Jesus said,".. unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I am. Then took they up stones to cast at him: but Jesus hid himself, and went out of the temple, going through the midst of them, and so passed by." - John 8:58-59.<br /><br />Well, I did a similar thing but I was born a male who became a female. I dressed as a woman and often walked in front of other men! I didn't realize it at the time but decided it was the only natural thing for me to do. I later dressed as a female sex-pot and along the way I passed! Easy, well, maybe not so easy.<br /><br />To illustrate my point, the Food Stamp program, WIC, cell phones, and LHEAP, are all run by the government. The people who work in the various departments of Agriculture, Parks and Recreation and the Department of the Interior all agree, it is unwise to feed wild animals! They say that because those "wild animals" may become dependant upon the free food given away by we humans and will no longer be able to provide for themselves. That's just common sense if you ask me. But what are we humans if not a kind of "wild animal"? I know that while we humans may be higher in the hierarchy of intelligence, we're not necessarily the highest on the food chain. While many younger transvestites like to think we're exceptions to that rule, we're not. General society proves it. While the idea of dressing female as a man comes with some inherent dangers, I find it both challenging and interesting at the same time.<br /><br />I have "lines" on my hands that I've read about and have been told about by professional palmists and what they say is, what I have in my palm print are lines of protection! I have these lines on both my hands. When they first appeared I have no idea. What I've noticed, and after being told by professional palmists, is that there is no possible way to produce these marks naturally. Not by wearing a bracelet, not by wearing rings, not by having your nails done, not by holding your hands in a particular manner and I do all of that. There is simply no way to produce these marks naturally, none! At least none that I know of. I surmise the only way to get them is to be born with them, kind of akin to being born gay, we don't have a choice!<br /><br />While I feel these lines may apply to me as a MTF transvestite, I'm in agreement that the lines on my hands represent a kind of "protection". They (the lines) have kept me from doing dangerous things to myself throughout my life despite my desire. Maybe they are why I'm still disease free and alive! I know I've behaved poorly and I don't deserve to be disease free or alive, ergo, I must have led a protected life! I never felt this as strong as I do today. I admit I have no other clue.<br /><br />Everything is dependant upon some other thing, the Butterfly Effect springs to my mind, and is a no-brainer. Everything in the life of a human is controlled, cell phones and food as an example while in other cases it's our taxes. These taxes are taken from us and spent on what-ever the takers want without consulting us as to what that may be! That ought to be another no-brainer. I have an extremely limited income and it is dependant upon this same government but I have enough. Despite my un-approving wife who divorced me because of my desires. So, in the looming doom of this economy coupled with what politians have done with our dollars in the past, I plan to trade my talents for things I will need should that "need" ever arise. End of the Earth and all that.<br /><br />My chief concern is obviously makeup. I use lots of that in order to pass and it does get worn off during sexual abuse. My heels, nylons, and dresses, along with other things I use to create the illusion of being a female, are least not secondary and they are somewhat enduring. Those things can be used over and over, and they usually are on a daily basis, but the list never ends, it simply goes on and on. I only accept tips for my "services rendered" to help me look more like a woman, I'm a whore, NOT a prostitute! In addition to all the barter and future survival skills you can learn there is one other skill and that skill is how to be charitable. It’s not a hard thing to learn. Give "it" away and see what happens, you may get a pleasant surprise! To be sure, you're gonna become very popular!<br /><br />IMO, what I have learned and done has been very appropriate for me. My dress and makeup merely reflect what I am; a man who happens to enjoy being fucked by other men while wearing feminine clothes. Because I feel I'm a female I do what merely comes natural. I have the willingness to perform sexually as a woman for a man and I know I only have 2 out of 3 things a GG has. I have no pussy for an example. Because of that, and my mind set, I do what most GGs don't want to, so in a sense having low morals and low self esteem coupled with a guilt free and clear mind, helps me be a whore. Does that make me a psychopath? I think not but it helps allow me to have wanton sex! I fully know there is no way for me to become pregnant but I can still catch an STD, HIV or AIDS or I can be killed out-right by a nare-do-well. Just think sex from multiple strange men and the Day of Rememberance. To that end, I must be very careful and somewhat selective. I may be a male to female transvestite and wanton "bitch" but I do not have a death-wish!<br /><br />I've posted an 'about me' before but I will re-post in the hope I'll say something that lets you get to know me. Not many people know the real me. No, I'm not going to post my real "male" name, although some trans people already know it, or my current address as I'm rather content being as popular as I am. Yes, I'm a "fake" woman in my apartment for any man (admirer) who wants me despite being a man myself. I wish to tell you how my life has shaped me into the woman I am today.<br /><br />Gerard Way said, "One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching." IMO, that's both sage advice and eventual.<br /><br />I heard or read somewhere (I'm sure it was regarding extraterrestrial aliens or UFOs) that “When you see it, you will believe it.” However, an equally well known person turned that around and said, “When you believe it, you will see it!” A true conundrum if ever there was one but UFOs are very controversial and everyone has an opinion about them. Every one! The same can be said, and often is, about trannies as everybody has an opinion about us, too. Everybody! I just happen to believe I'm in the latter camp.<br /><br />I also read Buddha has a saying, “All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the World”. Well, what Buddha said made me re-think my idea about my desire to be a female. At first, I thought being a female was merely in my head, I simply made it what it is. But then I asked myself; Why would I do that? I know I didn't feel I was gay (though I could have been) and the question of my being gay was dismissed simply because I've felt I was female at the ripe old age of six. The only answer was that deep down inside I really felt I was female!<br /><br />As an FYI, I currently play video games, first person shooter (FPS) and role playing games (RPG), I do this simply to remind myself I'm a man. All the testosterone that goes into making these video games is almost palatable, just look at the women portrayed, and it lets me at least feel like I'm a man. Real women don't make me feel I'm a man! It may be that I merely "think" I'm a woman and while Buddha's saying is still a very interesting one to me, I'm driven to be a woman. Regardless of what anyone thinks of me I admit, while I'm a bit turned off by society I'm not confused by society, it is what it is, it's people and they're entitled to their opinions. I am confused, however, by the Bible thumpers. Tolerance and all that.<br /><br />As you may have gathered, or may not, I'm a male to female transvestite, a cross dresser. Some say I am an "un-decided" cross dresser and a few want me to transition to a "full woman". Just one more example of the many opinions I mentioned. Allow me to explain a first about myself; At my advanced age of 62 plus I have no plans to seek corrective reconstruction surgery (SRS). Not only am I that small but "corrective" surgery has the implication something is wrong, I heartily disagree! I have never felt the need for hormone replacement therapy (HRT) and I've "performed" as a full-time woman since I was ayongster, so I guess I'm also lucky in that department. I am very aware I'm very under endowed as a man and as the joke goes, I would never call my tiny "pee-pee" a cock! I see it as more of a large clit, my dick is very small. Despite what I do, and the way I usually dress, I feel very comfortable with me! I'm also considered a whore by many fellow MTF cross dressers and quite a few GGs, that's their opinion of me. I think they're just jealous, that's my opinion of them!<br /><br />"Wrath is cruel and anger is outrageous, but who is able to stand before envy?", that's from Proverbs 27:1-4 in the King James bible but I don't pretend to know what it means or what bearing it has. I do know I'm not into scat or blood!<br /><br />My life is not all that much different from others like me. I drink a couple cups of half-cafe coffee while reading my Kindle, I then select my dress for the day, take a shower and put on my makeup. When I get dressed I feel strongly I have no other purpose than to have sex with men which is why I dress the way I do. I know I can't get pregnant, I don't have the plumbing for that, and most of my dates know that. If I'm really lucky, (this is just me!) I'll get passed around, "fun" at it's finest! I do get "man messed" on my face quite often and I do feel a kind of hurt in my man-pussy but that's because some men who fuck me are very enthusiastic! As an FYI, all men are big and they do hurt me but only for a brief time. I know their hurt isn't permanent and I know I absolutely love to have sex with men! So, why is that?<br /><br />To answer that question let me say I have an insatiable desire to be a female and I simply behave as one, albeit it is said with questionable morals and low self-esteem. More opinions! I see myself as simply an unquenchable he/she cross dressing "bitch" and I think I know what is meant by the word "bitch". I also think I understand the he/she part!<br /><br />I'm a queer who bends for men and I absolutely love being the center of attention, not surprising I also love turning their heads! That means I wear very short skirts, heels with nylons, and wear lots of makeup. Men enjoy seeing a woman looking like me and that's what I want to project, it's what I feel I am. I'm not sure how simple, or dumb, that makes me but society would have me behaving badly as a boy behind closed doors only and I would happily do that anyway, I don't need to wear a dress! But dressing like a "lady" in public when I'm still a man is a trick. Or is it? That is very confusing to me! I only have two out of three things a GG has and I willingly want to use them, so what's so wrong about that?<br /><br />Along my journey of my becoming a male to female tranny I have come to realize I'm a cum-whore. Some say that's sad but it's true nonetheless. I usually ask "dates" to say they "love" me as they unload or just after they cum in me but many dates simply refuse. I understand because I know what we do is not "love" by any stretch! I know what "love" really is! Most dates say they enjoy letting me make "love" to them which I call it simply because it sounds nice. Unless he wants me to use other words!<br /><br />Semen, which is pure protein and only a man (regardless of his endowment or race) can give it to me, is like chocolate, I like it! While I care less about cock size, (in fact smaller is better as far as I'm concerned!) I do care that all cum is spent inside me. Well, most of it, some of it can end up on my face! Regardless if you just put your dick in my mouth and have me jack you off, or fuck me in my man-pussy, as long as some of your cum gets in me I do not have a problem! And yes, I prefer "bare-back" so I can taste it and I do swallow! The only thing I demand of you (or ask) is, before I swallow you tell me you're disease free! I know I don't have the where-with-all to check you medically so I rely on you to tell me. I am clean (at least my doctor tells me I am STD free) and I wish to remain that way!<br /><br />I'm fully aware I'm a male to female cross dresser who can catch an STD by simply sucking a cock. In fact, I'm sure I'll catch an STD, HIV or AIDS one day, but until I do I promise to be your suck and fuck bitch for the few moments of sex we have together and I promise not to talk with you about it afterward no matter how it goes, ever! Many men who have experienced me as a woman have told me I'm a cum whore, so I guess it must be true! But then again, that's just their opinion of me. My experience is that the majority of my dates are black, not because they are well "hung" but simply because they seem to be more accepting of a "girl" like me. If they want to fuck my man-pussy that's OK because I let them and they only hurt in the beginning, I'll get over it I am a woman!<br /><br />So, how does a born boy go from being just a boy to a wanton girl? I first have to tell you some history about myself. I apologize up front for the long-ness of the post.Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-72353199041553599452013-12-30T17:22:00.002-08:002013-12-30T17:22:07.939-08:00My hope ...Hope everyone has safe and happy New Year!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-86094883809749684862013-12-24T05:45:00.001-08:002013-12-24T05:45:28.028-08:00This just in ...Read all about here;<br />
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And ask yourself, why this had to happen? What was the point?<br />
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Some things, mental, societal and otherwise, will never change.<br />
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Hope you have a merry Christmas. Stay safe!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-67542189772351432852013-10-27T07:44:00.001-07:002013-10-27T07:44:16.728-07:00Halloween costumes 2013This Halloween season like most others the adult male costumes are well within the spirit and look tasteful. The women's costumes are .. well, more tasty looking. This season we mtf transvestites get yet another opportunity to prove we can both look and behave as sex toys for boys! I'm sure a male (married or not) had a hand in that!<br />
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As for me, I'm going to be handing out the candy to all (hopefully they're all adult men admirers!) dressed as a female tramp, nothing really different from what I do normally. Regardless if they ask, I'll simply tell them! I suspect I'll be performing a few private "tricks" throughout the year. Speaking only for myself, I'm glad some things rarely change!<br />
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Hope you have a safe and happy Halloween!<br />
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PS; Please, don't think of me as the enemy, I only speak the truth as I see it!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-26118327079236633482013-10-24T15:57:00.000-07:002013-10-24T15:57:02.650-07:00Just a rant more than anything elseBeing fucked in the mouth by a man, regardless if you're a GG or a fake woman and a whore like me, is nothing new. Men enjoy doing that to all women and they really enjoy doing that to "their bitch" every night. You might just be lucky and get him to unload in you while sucking him off three times per day and you ought to expect that! He is still a man.<br />
<br />I know I go out of my way to be a bitch and I do expect it, sometimes I even share my talents! But being throated so long that my breathing is blocked is not good even if he can bring me out of it when he's done! Despite my wanting to be his bitch, it takes a toll on me.<br /><br />I have a man-pussy he can use and he can share that part of me with his friends, too! Although that usually makes me constipated the next day it's better than being throated every night!<br /><br />Not tasting a man's semen is not my ideal of being a woman and neither is my sleeping a lot during the next day! Just to let him know, and if he cares about me, throating me every night of the week is just too much.<br /><br />I'm just sayin'<br />Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-11113609991216836772013-10-01T06:43:00.001-07:002013-10-01T06:43:58.831-07:00Just an FYI ....For the most part it's a little publicized fact there are many males who are Trans-Sexual or Trans-Gender and some who cross dress. It is said that I am a Transvestite, a Cross Dresser, and that I get a thrill from wearing female clothes and jacking myself off. Allow me to say in my defense that while I enjoy wearing female clothes, I don't get a thrill! That said, we are known in the alphabet-world as TS/TG/TV/CD respectively. How society sees us, however, is another separate matter but still it all matters! No matter what classification we fall under we're truly females on the inside regardless of the time or money we spend getting there. How anyone feels is a very crucial matter to everyone. Everyone! We are humans after all. It has only recently come to light in medical circles we may not all be "ill minded" persons or have a "mental deviation", which is a big plus in our favor! Sadly, not many common folk listen or know what goes on in the medical world. As a BTW, I also wish to say not all trans-persons are child-molesters in the making!<br />
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All that being said, it is sadly well known that most men who "think" or "feel" they're female hide behind the anonymity of the computer. Why? Because it's safe in here! We need that safety because society at large doesn't "take" to us, they don't want us around. One need only read of the many tranny deaths to see that.<br />
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Not liking us trannies goes for both cis men AND cis women! It's been my experience that most married women, especially, simply don't care for any man wearing a dress and makeup. Could it be they think we'll steal their men? Maybe. But even if we do we steal him it's for just a few scant minutes, he's still their man at the end of the day. I think that notion is also shared by general society. Why that is, is not so much my focus here but it does make us "perverts" feel the need to seek safety, the result is we hide!<br />
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Our inner feelings, which is opposed to many thoughts by the "straight" world, is not the result of any deep seated confusion about our sexuality or brought on through molestation from the outside, which is NEVER acceptable! It still, however, causes some confusion on our part and most of us bloom late. While certain boys, what I like to label as the truly adventurous, bloom early, late blooming men claim they didn't know they would feel so good toward another man while early blooming boys always say they did! Young boys who strongly feel female are labeled queers, like I was, and all males to females make the claim they're mentally women trapped inside biological male bodies. I know, cliche! Wearing a dress and makeup just seemed very natural to me.<br />
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It's another falsehood that we may have actively "chosen" to become women simply because of a very good sexual experience we had with another male, that's not entirely true. Because society sees us as queers it is thought we usually become NSA and wanton bitches or pedophiles. Pedophilia is NEVER acceptable! I wish to re-emphasize that point, NEVER! I heartily disagree with those assessments and feel our lives are not a matter of choice but of drive. Our self discovery, unfortunately because of how we're seen, causes us to say we look sexy but we're also usually on-line only. Again, it's safe in here!<br />
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Most trans-persons, because of societal thought, spend great deals of time soliciting meetings on-line with other TS/TG/TV/CDs and some are looking just for "fun" and claim they want nothing more. While we may have a heartfelt desire to suck a cock, some of us rarely show! Sound familiar?<br />
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While on-line these male to females make outrageous claims to have sucked lots of cock when in fact they've probably never even seen another man's hard-on up close or held it in their hands, let alone sucked on it! I don't mean to brag but I have! It follows then that they probably have no idea what another man's semen tastes like either so, let me explain for the benefit of those "closet MTFs" and the uninitiated T-girls among us. Semen takes on the flavor of what the man (called an admirer today) has recently eaten, or drank, and it has no real flavor of its own. It's usually white in color regardless of who it comes from and it has a musky smell, it's only mildly salty, usually very thick, smooth, and slippery and kind of warm. It can also be quite voluminous but not usually. It's kind of like a room temperature egg. In a word, it's manly!<br />
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Those of us cross dressing men who have been sexually active as females may also know how some admirers unload their semen. It's interesting. They do so in the exact same manner they would if with a GG! Usually quite fast and sometimes borderline violent. The fact you're a man dressed as a woman doesn't give you a pass to their gentleness, they're still men and you're a "kind" of woman! The situation is akin to that of a dom verses a sub and, as a side note, most experienced MTF trannies know, as do most sexually active GGs, that while all men may be created equal, they don't remain that way. That's especially true in the endowment department!<br />
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At the risk of coming across as totally crude allow me to expand here just a bit. It's not always the size of the man that dictates his endowment. You can't just look at a man and expect his penis to match, they don't always. A man's penis comes in all sizes, just like his body. Some are thin while others are thick and they're all different colors, different textures, different lengths, and different weights. Most MTFs certainly don't remain the way they're born, so why would we expect a man to be any different?<br />
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IMO, men who have the desire to be a women but remain in hiding are simply scared because they're not very well experienced as females and suspect the size of the penises they may encounter could be very big. Well, some are! Most in fact. They fear being hurt or throated, and to them I have only one thing to say: Get over it, girls! Men enjoy doing that to all woman trans or not! In fact, the more they hurt you or choke you the bigger they see themselves! And they enjoy seeing themselves as big! Oh yeah, they like doing other things, too! That may be due to control or to show superiority.<br />
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Anyway, so how is it possible to let someone know you wear a dress and are sexually cruising? Well girls, in order to experience a man one has to not only dress the part, you must simply get out there! No on-line games, no hook-ups. You are still a real person but you happen to think you're a woman and you have feelings! What is so hard to understand? <br />
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I dress like a whore because I labor under the impression it's a man's world. I see my desire to be female as my true nature but being used as a female sex object is my sole reason for existing. My sole purpose, if you will. Not to brag but .. I've been hurt plenty of times by a man with a huge cock and choked on plenty of others but I expect that. I think I'm supposed to because I "think" I'm a woman and I "know" he's a man! You know what? It works! I'm not a brain surgeon or rocket scientist but I enjoy being a female and that's <br />
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If a guy walks up to me and wonders out loud if I'm a real female or not, which is rare, I've found the simplest thing for me to do is admit to him up front what I am. I merely whisper to him, "I'm a man in a dress and I love to suck cock." That either gives him an easy out and lets him save face and walk away from me or it lets him tell me he already knew what I was. In the case of him knowing about me it can become a huge turn-on for him. BTW, doing that also limits the potential violence against me! Let's face it, those who make the claims of being extremely sexy and NSA behind the anonymity of the computer, then don't show up, make it hard (no pun intended) for the rest of us.<br />
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Now-a-days, because of all the vitriol in this civil society against men wearing dresses and makeup, not to mention the "idea" of acting as a homosexual, I ask that you allow me space to tell you a little about myself as an introduction. I apologize up front for the length of the post but details normally use lots of words and this "about me" is no exception. I'll put that info up in a future posting.<br />
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Let me leave you with these facts in the meantime: we will all become just so many particles of dust in the end and we can be killed through an STD or out-right by a stalker, all without the benefit of ever "knowing" a man. To me that's sad!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-13696311026919593872013-09-04T04:07:00.000-07:002013-09-04T04:07:51.482-07:00What man doesn't like a free blow job?I've taken the liberty of not including who the following letter is addressed to or who the letter is from. I've also noticed a very similar thing.<br /><br />"I've been to Ulta at Westgate several times now as well as Dillard's at Great Northern and they've always treated me well. I've yet to ask about a makeover at either one but the general consensus is that if you're going to drop some money most sales people simply see you as a potential sale and will act accordingly being polite & professional. This has been my personal experience as well.<br /><br />The Ulta folks will also be happy to set you up with their "Club" card (their version of a rewards card) and a monthly newsletter highlighting upcoming featured products & services (if you don't mind the newsletter coming in your mail).<br /><br />With all the businesses I go to "en femme" I'm usually casually dressed in jeans & a top and makeup. I go in with my "hey, this is just me" attitude. I make good eye contact, I'm friendly and polite and so far I've gotten treated with the same courtesy and respect given to any other customer... sometimes even more.<br /><br />Be confidant, be yourself & enjoy the ride!<br />Sincerely, __ __ ;) winking"<br /><br />The same can be said of a not-so-passable man wearing a fitted mini-skirt and high heels who is sitting in a dimly lit bar or club (gay bars or clubs are best!) and lets it be known that "he" is obviously very willing to suck a cock! Most men become admires of us T-girls and all admires will be nice to you! Especially if they think they know why you're there! To remove any and all questions, I merely tell them what I am and why I'm there up front.<br /><br />
I can't think of a man, married or not, who will walk away from a so-so but free blow job or free anal sex! Enjoy the ride, girls, life is too short not to!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-4122379339842980132013-07-31T08:07:00.000-07:002013-07-31T08:07:05.572-07:00About me! Thought I'd post this.<div class="ORa">
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some boys would follow me home and beat me up along the way, I told more than a few lies
to my dad but was able to tell my mother the truth, we cried, she hugged
me. <br /><br />One day, by accident, my true self was born! I simply took the sucking choice as opposed to the beating option and I quickly discovered what boys and men
really enjoy! It wasn't all that bad and I'm NOT very brave! I was told I ought to wear
girl's clothes when doing 'it' since I was a sissy anyway and I've been hooked ever since! I wore
panties all through junior high school and high school and I've felt
boys were the most natural thing for me. I didn't care if boys noticed me or not. The result, I actually became
rather popular and I've been invited to
plenty of parties in a hush-hush kind of way! <br /><br />Because of pressures from my father and societal norms, I went "straight" but it didn't last. During
my marriage I created children but I was living the big lie. My mother
knew about me and had more of a clue than the others did. She didn't say a thing except that the marriage wouldn't last!<br /><br />My wife came home early
from a trip out west very unannounced and very unexpected, she saw me. I
was dressed and wearing extreme makeup trying desperately to give the
impression of being very cheap and I'm sure I succeeded! I might not
have easily been mistaken for a street walking prostitute but I got pretty close! The guy I was with at the time was sitting while I was in the perfect
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steamed (read, p.o.ed) wife told the guys to put their drinks down and
get out in no unclear terms. The guy I was with said to my wife on his
way out, she "should just leave me the f...k alone!" He stopped very
close to me and said in a very clear voice, he would call me later so I could finish what I
started. My only thought was, "This guy is all man!"<br /><br />My wife and
I watched them leave. After they left, my wife looked me up and down
as only a woman does, very critically. She noticed the wet stains on my
body-shirt, which was my favorite purple lace blouse, and said she
didn't want to know what caused them! Then she asked, "Why does a man
do this for other men?" I had no answer for her and just starred at the
floor in silence. As she stormed out of the living room she stopped
and added, "You don't even make a good looking girl!" <br /><br />I've
since learned that it is quite common, and even natural, for a genetic
woman to say exactly that to a male to female tranny no matter what he
looks like as a woman and I think that's especially true if the tranny is
her hubby! Nothing really new there.<br /><br />She bought a complete new wardrobe
and justified it by saying she couldn't be sure of which clothes of hers I
might've worn during my cross dressing 'adventures'. I grew tired of
her badgering and assured her I had my own female wardrobe, including
wigs! She told me to show it to her and I foolishly did! She burned
all my female things in the bar-b-q as I stood by. She also soon began
accusing me of having "other men". I simply couldn't change my spots
and we ultimately got divorced.<br /><br />I'm retired from the US
Government and, not because she had the better lawyer, I'm on a
rather limited income, she got most of it, imagine my surprise! Despite
my loss, I feel I'm more woman now!<br /><br />Let me share this;
at my age of 60 plus I have no desire to get SRS and have never felt
the need for HRT. I'm not sure if I'm lucky or if I'm just a natural. I
cum like a girl and think of my tiny penis as a really big clit. I've
had a vasectomy but DO wish to have my testicles totally removed because
they no longer work and they often get in my way.<br /><br />Today, because
I don't pass all that well coupled with established negative thoughts
of this polite society about cross dressers, I wear my entire "girly"
ensemble under my man-drab street clothes. Behind closed doors I'm a true 'femme' and I'm especially found of cuddling and kissing and know
exactly where that leads. I'm NOT a prude and far from innocent!<br /><br />I've
been accused by plenty of trans-persons, and a fair share of GGs, that I
have low morals and lack self-respect. While it's somewhat true, I
feel I'm just a female in a male body (I know, cliche) however, I'm not
so sure I'm good for anything other than sex! I also enjoy the usual
things like reading, visits to museums, photography, theaters, parks and
walking around just window shopping in the city. I will buy cute shoes
when I see them, lmao!<br /><br />If you wish to contact me, please do! I go by the name Billie.</div>
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Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-44389126128853748172013-07-18T16:41:00.000-07:002013-07-18T16:41:05.159-07:00A very confusing time indeed!As a young boy I always felt I was just play-acting a boy role but knew in my heart of hearts I was different. The first kiss I got from another boy told me, and confirmed, I was a natural femme!<br /><br />I was always thought to be, by many others including my own family, a sissy and being made into a full sissy was very easy, but it was also very confusing for me. As a result, I learned sucking cock was the most natural thing I could do and wearing a dress and makeup was only natural, too!<br /><br />Giving my first blow job felt wrong and maybe kind of sinful, at first, but it simply became more natural and more addictive and it became a part of my life. I felt that only real boys got these "things" from real girls! What did I know?<br /><br />I always felt kind of calm while giving blow jobs but, as they unloaded their semen in me, I became very confused about what I just did! I was kind of surprised as their semen flooded my mouth and even just a bit embarrassed! They usually told me to swallow it, I did as I was told but it was still very confusing. I recall I rarely got a 'thank you' for my effort but I also never got more 'food for thought' than after it was done! Today, I see wearing a dress and makeup and giving blow jobs as merely very natural and one very minor part of my being a total femme. I'm also not so sure I'm gay!<br /><br />I can't explain it, nor will I attempt to try, but I've never been happier or felt more natural than when I'm all dressed up. Giving a guy a blow job merely becomes the icing on my femme cake! Being naughty (which is largely dependent on who is!) just happens, it's a natural part of biology. While my first full opened mouth, "wet" kiss from a boy confirmed I was a member of the "weaker sex", giving him a blow job made me feel extremely feminine and when he came he actually gave me validation of my being a female!<br /><br />Who knows? Perhaps I am a girl!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-44615459957948079542013-07-08T11:02:00.002-07:002013-07-08T11:02:49.239-07:00Why do I chose to wear girl's shorts?I'm asked by lots of men, women, and boys, this exact question every time I wear a pair of female short shorts. I have no pat answer for them but I admit I love how they feel on me and like the looks they usually get!<br /><br />Most women don't ask me anything, they'd never be that crude! Some women are indifferent and just don't care. Other women, probably wives, generally don't care for me wearing fitted female spandex short shorts but they don't usually say anything either. They almost always look me over closely though, critically no doubt. I can easily read the disgust or intolerance of me in their eyes!<br /><br />Younger boys are intrigued by me and simply wish to talk with me about being gay. Maybe they feel the same as I do and they're confused about their own sexuality? I'm glad to talk with them!<br />
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Men, usually in a group, ask me point blank if I'm a "sissy" or a "bitch" or do I "suck cock"? Am
I a queer? Do I "like" men? It's not that they're interested in me! At least that's the impression I get from them. I usually don't answer those questions
out loud and just walk away in silence. I do give them a demure look and a walk which clearly says, "What do you think?"<br /><br />
However, that's usually enough to set someone off in the group! The other men often restrain that man from beating me to within an inch of my life! He's usually much bigger and stronger than I am so I don't have any delusions of what might happen. I don't think he would be such a great threat on his own in a different venue, he's merely aggressive as most men, yet he feels he has to make a point to the group by beating me up! It seems that will satisfy making his point to the group. I'm usually told by the remaining men to just leave and reminded not to come back .. or else!<br /><br />I'll leave the interpretation of "or else" to your imagination.<br />
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Such has been my life as a man who simply likes to wear well fitted female short shorts in public. I don't wear heels, dresses or makeup in public much any more (I've gotten older!) and my female intimates (my unmentionables) are still worn daily but under my man-drabs! I've been, sadly, put back in a closet of sorts. <br />
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Despite my experience with many insulting and dangerous occurrences I still shave and moisturize! I also now carry a TASER for my protection! So,why do I do like to wear female clothes? I don't know, maybe I am just a queer, or on the other hand, maybe I'm more than that!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-38964127692228541982013-07-04T10:52:00.004-07:002013-07-04T10:52:32.338-07:004th of JulyJust a wish for all to have a safe and Independent Day. Enjoy!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-88414002354112357172013-06-30T19:39:00.000-07:002013-06-30T19:41:40.582-07:00A thought on Cross DressingWhile "surfing the web" I stumbled upon an article about cross dressers by Ellen Sherman and wanted to re-tell it. It's really long so I didn't. You can Google it. It's about the 11 Misconceptions of Cross Dressers.<br />
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Ellen opens by saying every Fall, several hundred traditional husbands, fathers and businessmen come together in Provincetown for Fantasia Fair with parties, seminars and workshops exploring the thorny issue of how to buy the right wig and hide a 5 o'clock shadow with the foundation and blush-on. Heterosexual married men from suburbia with families are among those who cross-dress. What's going on? Apparently cross dressing is a much more common practice than most people would imagine.<br />
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I thought it complimented the blog "Femulate" by Stana, Stana. The bottom-line, speaking for myself, is you can't change a cross dresser's mind, they are the way they are, period! Some know themselves to be honest to goodness women. I know I do!<br />
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This information was originally published on 5/28/98, and can be viewed at; http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/articles/sex/xdress.html <br />
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It's lots of stuff you may already know and has many giant mental minds in it but despite that and its publication date, it hasn't changed anything in this civil and polite society for us. We're still seen as lowly trannies for the most part. Maybe that change will come soon, when 'soon' will be is any one's guess.<br />
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Just sayin'Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-70875698109430749972013-06-12T09:32:00.001-07:002013-06-12T09:32:43.235-07:00Wearing a corset 24/7I just read an article about a woman, an honest to goodness GG woman, who is 24 years old and has been wearing a corset for three years. She says her goal is to obtain the world's smallest waist. She has spent the last three years eating, sleeping and living in a corset, and her waist is a mere three inches smaller than when she started. Sad!<br /><br />It's a foolish thing to do when coupled with the cited potential medical problems, and there are plenty. However, I see no reason to stop sleeping in my Squeem! It's a perplexing psychological phenomena, people who are so entrenched in their own self-perception, like I am in my desire to be a woman, I'm just a man who merely chooses to present as a woman and all that entails. <br />
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I'm not much different from the majority of men who wear a dress and makeup for other men and I do that in order to get fucked. So, does that make me gay? I think not but I may be wrong!<br /><br />I do feel my movements and actions are more feminine when I wear a heavily boned cloth corset, not to mention the short skirts and high heels! And, when I check my reflection in my hall mirror every morning, I believe I also look just a bit sexy! All the male admirers I "date" would have me be naughty for them anyway and since that's what I see as my major female goal in my trans-life, it's a no-brainer!<br /><br />I know my oral desire can easily be turned into a simple fixation but I don't have a pussy and it just happens to be my preference! I enjoy my sexual interactions with men and I like the taste of their semen. I simply love making love to a man including being fucked by him! I feel we should leave well enough alone.<br />
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Se la vie!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-19112946852362458222013-06-05T11:31:00.000-07:002013-06-05T11:31:35.860-07:00The Quick Reference to the Diagnostic Criteria From the DSM-4-TRFrom one poster on Amazon: Finally, someone recognizes that there are non-professionals who need to use the DSM IV-TR. I am a family law attorney and have to deal with forensic psychological evaluations or psychological issues in my divorce cases, but I have no mental health training.<br /><br />Honest and interesting.<br /><br />From another: My father was a psychologist. Amateur diagnoses were the bane of his existence and professional misdiagnoses are just as dangerous. I can see why. I have been unable to recognize people I know from the vague descriptions in the literature. It's totally irresponsible to lead people to believe that any layman can simply pick up the DSM and make diagnoses and recommend a course of therapy!<br /><br />Insane, yet it happens!<br /><br />Yet another comment about this book was, In the meantime, making diagnoses from the DSM is not only a physician's role it's his right!"<br /><br />This comment causes me to offer, with no offense intended, apparently not that much is known about American mental health. Again, no offense is intended, but clinicians who are not doctors but still learning students in colleges (lay-persons) are future psychologists, future social workers, future psychiatric nurse practitioners, etc., and all are taught to use the DSM for making diagnoses. They are taught they have a responsibility to do so, which they do, then take that teaching as a "legal" right to recommend therapies! This says a lot for inexperience and students of academia.<br />
<br />According to the ethics of the field, and in concert with my own opinions, to make mental health diagnoses, let alone prescribe or recommend therapies, according to the DSM and criteria contained within it, is a joke. IMO, no one should use it because its methods are not "written in stone" and, in my further opinion, this book can be quite harmful!<br /><br />Point in case, I've been asked hundreds of times by men who are married to give them meaningless, albeit quickie, blow jobs while their wives are away, AND we should not talk about it, ever! So, does that mean I have a mental illness and they're merely taking advantage of it? Who is right and who is wrong?<br />
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I see myself as a person who loves to dress like a female, wear makeup, and love men in the one way I know best how! But because I'm a known femme and oftentimes comply with requests, I have to ask myself, should I continue? It's well known I'm a male to female transvestite and I thoroughly enjoy sucking men's cocks to climax, I also happen to be thought of as a sex-starved horny bitch by both these same men and their women! Bottom line, I don't think I'm behaving badly as a woman and neither do my admirers!<br /><br />Without question YOU should be allowed to be the kind of woman YOU want to be!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-43613620746125565692013-04-19T20:36:00.001-07:002013-04-19T20:36:59.716-07:00The Boston dealI wish to convey my condolences to all those people who lost limbs and those who lost their lives and their survivors.<br />
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My fear is that this is going to become more common in future days. It is unfathomable. <br />
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While it may not help you, be assured those who died are in a better place. Again, my heartfelt sympathies.Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-30761832729559425202013-03-13T06:37:00.000-07:002013-03-13T06:37:39.939-07:00Comments in response to a question got me thinking.The question is/was, Is rape wrong? While I feel rape ought not be done to anyone, I know it happens all the time. I've even been a victim of it .. twice!<br />
<br />I have to ask, is it merely biology turned on? Is it done to relieve stress? Does it have anything to do with raging hormones? Does the use of drugs and alcohol enhance the act for either a male or a female? As you can see I have many questions!<br /><br />As background and at the risk of TMI, I've sucked many men to climax while they've been doing lines of coke and drinking heavily, that didn't stop them from enjoying what I was doing! And I don't need either to do it, just their permission.<br /><br />IMO, the level of personal maturity and pure curiosity, especially at a young age for both males and females, plays a large and significant role. Add drugs and alcohol into the mix and the outcome can be either disastrous or pleasant depending on you and your feelings. Politics has nothing to do with this and neither, IMO, does responsibility. I feel you can legislate and teach what you will, both right and wrong (especially to young people) and in the end curiosity and desire will win out every time! We are, after all, only human.<br /><br />Sadly, the only way to stop our suffering is to change or bring an end to societal thoughts about us. Sadly also, is adults (seemingly responsible, usually educated) will do whatever they can to frame any act of any under aged person (seemingly immature) as simple innocence or folly and down-play or discount most outcomes as a result. Rape and shootings of course happen, probably more than we care to know, but these things can be either planned or sporadic. To be sure both have consequences and both have ripple effects. Cross dressing obviously is not exempt!<br /><br />So, where does that place the cross dresser? I've been chastised and tossed out by my own family and raped and beaten, but thankfully not shot, just because I decided to wear a dress. While I can't answer that question, I know it's senseless! For the most part, people will use a system they created to prosecute those who they feel do not comply, that system was NOT created by the victims! Again, we are merely human (supposedly older and wiser) yet by no means do we have all the answers for every situation. We simply pick and choose according to our own feelings regarding all matters including cross dressing. This is especially true for cross sexed persons. Frustrating to say the least.<br /><br />This following statement is from the UK Home Office where it is commonly believed, "Drugs destroy lives and cause untold misery to families and communities and this is why we believe they must remain illegal," They add, "Decriminalisation is not the answer." That sounds honest but Guatemala disagrees. Cross dressing is rarely addressed in either culture, so, are we really the problem then? I think not but society seems to disagree with me! What difference does it make if I choose to wear a dress and be naughty for men? The problems of the world do not rest upon me! Unequal amounts of positive lip-service is paid to all cross dressers but the problem of discrimination and hatred goes on, nothing truly changes.<br /><br />International agreements AGAINST the illegal drug trade, especially in regard to addictive narcotics, date back to 1912 and are well documented. The United Nations estimates that there are 230 million drug users globally, and the annual trade in illegal drugs is worth an estimated $330bn US dollars. The lion's share of that expenditure is in Western countries by the way, not where the drugs are grown and processed! An interesting tid-bit.<br /><br />According to a Central American prison director, Azalia Lopez, "Drug dealers and drug traffickers are not evil people. They are in it for the money." He also notes the drug dealers and drug traffickers can be reformed, but my question is, Do they need to be? <br /><br />According to this society they do! But the same is thought about cross dressers!<br /><br />The organization Save the Children says, increasing numbers of children in Syria are being recruited by armed groups on both sides of the conflict. Both sides! Children are being used as porters, guards, informers, fighters and, in some cases, human shields. All these children have seen the devastation of war first hand and it is claimed some two million children are in need of assistance in Syria alone. Not much is done about that. Guess there's no money in it.<br /><br />Mahatma Gandi once said, "Be the change you want to see."<br />I say, Be the kind of woman YOU want to be!Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-45043807097065167752013-03-03T08:31:00.000-08:002013-03-03T08:37:11.714-08:00Lech Walesa said .... I just read this on-line and had to comment on it. Lech Walesa said, "A minority should not impose itself on the majority,". Sounds like good advice but ... IMO, neither ought a majority impose itself on a minority!<br />
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We cross dressers who are a clear minority in my mind, often get killed and hardly no-one is taken to task over that most dastardly and terminal crime. Many do not pay more than mere lip service to it, after all, it is fairly commonly known that we, especially male to female trannies (he-shes), were asking for it! Speaking for myself, I only dress this way behind closed doors!<br />
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The posted replies were obviously in full support of his statement, which is kind of telling. There were few, if any, call outs for his bias and except from those in the article, society generally makes many in-roads to accept us as is while the "other" side of society has another image of us!<br />
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Given the hidden nature of this "polite and civil society" (which is quite secretive and very private) it's little wonder I turned out as I have. Growing up and being a closeted gay, (a queer to most) many males have told me to suck their cock or take a beating! Simple. These males didn't like me much but they expected nothing less from me and I simply accepted having low morals. What can I say, I guess I'm an honest tramp! And yes, I dress like a woman and I've sucked many cocks and swallowed or worn many male's semen on my made up face. For the most part, most guys seemed to enjoy it. For the record, so did, and still do, I.<br />
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Granted, sometimes I wanted fervently to do exactly that to a man, especially when I was younger and just learning about myself, but I had no clue it would lead me to what I am today. Most males (admires), to put it bluntly, only expect one thing from me and today I'm hopelessly addicted to it all! I willingly set myself up to look the part of a whore for them, I sometimes go out afterward, and I often allow men to command me to do it for them merely because I'm a male who thinks and feels female!<br />
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Oh yeah, I've been "trained" by males most of my young life but I'm not saying that being "trained" by men makes me guiltless. I can only imagine what the alternative might have been like! I'm not even all that sad, I only mention males training me because it just became another part of my reality and it enhanced me. I've taken my training fully voluntarily and told I took it very well! <br />
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Being a T-woman (for me) simply means playing a sexual role for a man, I do not see myself as a threat! I have serious doubts I will ever change and I know where semen comes from, I merely want it.<br />
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Be the kind of woman YOU want to be! Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-34387206517742498372013-01-29T16:00:00.003-08:002013-01-29T16:00:58.513-08:00This just in .....The NYC's mayor Bloomberg’s off-the-cuff comment on 1/27/2013, bewildered author writing profile on mayoral candidate Christine Quinn. Mayor Bloomberg also had a couple of pointed comments on Quinn’s appearance, he said, 'Get rid of the gray and strap on some heels.'<br /><br />He actually said that to her!<br /><br />You can read more here: http://www.nydailynews.com/news/politics/s-inine-bloomberg-a-article-1.1249432#ixzz2JHv4AWeK<br /><br />On Monday, Jan 28, 2013, MP Richard Graham said, 'Short skirts and high heels risk rape', well, that comment landed him in the dog house as well.<br /><br />Amanda Perthen published a similar article in January and updated it on the 27th, but nothing was said to her about it! Sounds a lot like politics to me.<br /><br />Richard Graham, MP for Gloucester, sparked outrage for saying that women put themselves at risk of rape by dressing provocatively. I would tend to agree with him and that's exactly why I do it, after all we're both genetic men. We know them!<br /><br />His comments also sparked outrage among various pro-women’s groups. They insist that if a woman becomes a victim of a rape it is not because of her dress style. I'm not sure I agree with them as it's also about where the girl is, what kind of environment she's in, who is going to be looking at her, and what they expect from her. She has choices, as do I, and of course these comments only serve as validation for me!<br /><br />Mr Graham, who in the past likened a night out in his constituency city of Gloucester, England, to "decadent Rome", said, 'A night out is about having fun without putting yourself at risk. If you are a young woman on her own trying to walk back home through a park early in the morning in a tight, short skirt and high shoes, and there’s a predator ... or if you're blind drunk wearing those clothes, how able are you to get away?'<br /><br />A very good point but I'd like to offer my thoughts to Mr Graham; I suspect not all females want to get away. Some just want to have no direct responsibility for what happens, yet they still want it to happen! As a T-girl, I know I do, but I must be very careful in order to survive. That is what I call compromise and it means next to nothing in this society which interprets what it does to trannys as justifiable.<br /><br />Mr Graham’s comments came just days after actress Joanna Lumley (a GG) said women should dress demurely to avoid being 'raped or robbed'. Speaking at a Marks and Spencer campaign launch just last week, Ms Lumley said, 'Don’t look like trash, don’t get drunk, don’t be sick down your front, don’t break your heels and stagger about in the wrong clothes at midnight. This is bad.' Again, absolutely nothing was said about her comments!<br /><br />
Just as information, I don't get drunk out of my mind unless I'm at home! I don't usually lie sick in the gutter and when it's down my front I'm usually not alone! I also don't stagger about in the wrong clothes at midnight. Without 100% certainty I can say I know pretty much what I'm doing.<br /><br />Fury ensued again as Ab-Fab's Patsy (UK) warned that girls they are putting THEMSELVES at risk of rape. And again, nothing was said or made of her comment, but she is a GG.<br /><br />The corruption of a generation of our teachers has been linked to our daughters facing sexualisation as early as primary school, and the parents similar to Jon Bonet's parents don't cloud that thinking. Madison Avenue also plays a part. It is a little known fact that taking drugs or drinking heavily can affect a MAN's performance in the bedroom for years. A study was done to establish this last "fact" and my question firstly is, who cares, and secondly, why was it done?<br /><br />I believe I'm seeing a pattern here. Do you?<br /><br />Allow me to paraphrase Mr Graham, he said, I promise it is far better to look after yourself properly, i.e., don’t be sick in the gutter at midnight in a silly short dress with no money to get a taxi home because somebody might take advantage of you. If they don't rape you, they’ll probably knock you on the head and rob you.' And as we trannies know all too well, they may even kill you!<br /><br />But the MP’s comments also provoked anger from charities. Anger among pro-women's groups, who insist that if a woman becomes a victim of rape it is not because of her dress style. A spokeswoman for the Gloucestershire Rape Crisis Centre said rape was the crime, not drunkenness, and that the offense was ‘stimulated by desire for power and to humiliate and degrade’. Wow! That sounds pretty good, I know I would willingly accept it!<br /><br />While I agree about ".. whether you are drunk.', I heartily disagree with the idea 'It’s got nothing to do with how you are dressed,' I dress the way I do BECAUSE of the fact men take notice! Jo Wood, a trustee of Rape Crisis of England and Wales, said, 'These comments have set us back about 100 years. It doesn’t matter if you are off your face and lying naked on a bench, the man simply takes it upon himself to rape you. We should be about putting the blame back on the perpetrators.’<br /><br />Vivienne Hayes, of the Women’s Resource Centre, added, 'Such comments frighteningly normal-ise victim-blaming. They reallocate blame from the perpetrator to the victim. The problem is not female vulnerability but a macho culture which produces the notion of male entitlement. We have fostered a culture which consistently fails women through disbelief, victim-blaming, and failure to investigate.'<br /><br />That is more obvious with regard to T-girls in the US. The incidence of rape is simply down played because you're a man wearing a dress. After being looked over by a policeman, I've been told I was probably asking for it!<br /><br />Chief Inspector Richard Burge, of Gloucestershire Police, agreed being drunk could put people at risk. He said, 'We would appeal to everyone not to drink so much that you don’t know what’s happening. Excessive alcohol can make you vulnerable, so, stay with friends and if you are with a friend, try to look out for them too.' <br /><br />I agree with the Chief Inspector, it fits pretty well for trannys as well.<br /><br />On a related note, a Liberal party Democrat (male) MP, who sparked outrage for saying ‘the Jews had not learned from the murder of six million in the Holocaust' apologized just last night. Bradford MP David Ward said he was sorry for any 'unintended offense' in his comments. No protest has been noted by any women's groups, nor any Jewish ones!<br /><br />It isn't a shit storm, it's the truth. A woman should be free to dress as she wishes and our courts should sentence rapist scum-bags, not let them off because the girl was really a boy. How far out of touch are these judges anyway?<br /><br />I dress like a tramp and behave badly, I show my panties to every man every time I sit, but I do not ASK to be raped! Maybe I do, I don't think so.<br />
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Let me pose these questions; If I have nice things in my house and leave them unattended when I go out, do I "deserve" to be burgled? If I have a nice car am I asking for it to be broken into and robbed? It's pretty well known if I have money hanging out of my back pocket, I'm going to attract thieves. Similarly, the same can be said for wearing short skirts and highheels except the kind of person you'll attract simply wants to fuck you. If you want to be a woman but don't want to be fucked, don't wear short skirts and highheels! Simple.<br /><br />I, for one, think what I wear tells every man about me, with just one simple look he can tell that I'm a whore. But he might not know if I'm a man or a woman and to learn that he must approach me and speak with me, then he'll know! I know rape shouldn't happen but the stats point to the fact it does. The above info is right and, in more ways than one all Mr Graham did was state the obvious. For that he paid!<br /><br />What I've noticed is that most young woman (GGs) give the appearance of having little self respect and they dress in a very provocative manner. I merely do the same things as them! I'm sure being pretty and having a lovely personality, not to mention a real vag, there is absolutely no need to "let it all hang out" unless of course they wish to attract someone for sex. They are my real competition for cock.<br /><br />Keep in mind what this civil society is all about. I'm a T-woman and while I think all those people above have valid points, they are saying to women, 'Don't get yourself in silly situations.' That in itself is not sexist, it's merely sensible, and it's good advice for any T-woman as well!<br /><br />Let me close by saying this, here are a few facts as I've seen them. We have young ladies in a male dominated society out on the town dressed in as little as possible, sexily exposed and in all probability, hoping a man is looking. This young woman gets smashed out of her head and lets this guy take her. Which brings me to the artificially hormone filled males, which I won't even go into except to ask how many hours do you need a hard-on to last? Very horny men looking at what they see as a smorgasbord of female temptation and while she may or may not complain, rape happens.<br /><br />I love all women and think the female form is to be admired. Being gay and choosing to be a mtf trans I think I'm merely copying real women.<br />
Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-71355678145893396112013-01-22T17:37:00.000-08:002013-01-22T17:37:01.391-08:00The woman you want to beBaby it's cold outside, so I hope you have a long insulated coat to keep you warm!<br /><br />I recently read a story which outlines the devastation of genetic females around the world who are impacted by this sluggish economy and it was produced by none other than the World Bank which met, and is funded in part by, the International Monetary Fund (IMF). IMO, they are both players and they caused the economy to become sluggish in the first place! They're like two solidly entrenched Boy's Clubs despite being headed up by genetic women who make obscene salaries. Those women can easily be viewed as mere window dressing for these manly organizations.<br /><br />But, I'm off my soapbox.<br /><br />You can read the article here, http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/business-21088042<br />and this kind of goes along here, http://news.yahoo.com/world-bank-cuts-growth-outlook-advanced-nations-drag-012205192--business.html<br /><br />To paraphrase George Carlin, (I know that Carlin reference dates me!) "Men are waving their dicks at each other!" So my question is, what does it matter if I suck on them? Who am I hurting? Doing that often times equates to money via tips and I'm told I have little self respect and very loose and low morals anyway! I would disagree.<br /><br />I accept I'm a gay man and enjoy being a T-girl but I have very little to no resource. I merely rely on men to support my chosen lifestyle and here's a news-flash for ya; more of them support it than not! It's refreshing to think that by simply sucking cock (which I happen to feel is my proper place and quite natural) is a better choice for me than not.<br /><br />I don't know about you, but I find safety in T-friendly places and used to hang out around very dimly lit trucks and walk around dimly lit rest areas. I've been threatened by many "working" girls and dragged off into the bushes and beaten up for my efforts, by real girls! They yell at me that I don't have a vagina like them so I can't get pregnant, I tell them I simply grave what only men have! They tell me I'm disgusting. In truth, I don't have to have my ass kicked very often to learn my lesson.<br /><br />Julia Sorel said in her book, See How She Runs, “If you’re never scared or embarrassed or hurt, it means you never take any chances.” I agree!<br /><br />Sounds like a pretty good reason for a safe LTR. Would YOU like a "safe" LTR? <br /><br />Well, I've had a few so allow me to set the scene. Imagine being told every night which waist cincher or corset you should wear, which nylon stockings, which panties, and which heels to wear to bed. All the while knowing your man is more likely than not going to scream that you "take it all, bitch!" when you finally bring him to climax. Every night! I simply say doing the same man gets real old, real fast! BTW, it does happen, just ask a GG wife!<br /><br />I really don't mean to include every man in this set-up, but he also probably knows very little about the medical status of the man he wants to watch you perform with, and they usually want to watch us T-girls perform! So, suppose you add into this mix the idea you don't pass well in this finicky and just society? Well, society being what it is, I would simply suggest dressing and performing behind closed doors. Nothing wrong in doing that! I stayed in my closet hid for a long time and did it!<br /><br />The way I see it, I could catch an STD, or a life ending disease eventually, no matter which course I choose. I could also get beaten to death or shot just by being a T-girl and we all know that happens as evidenced by the ever growing lists of "tranny" murders. Who follows up?<br /><br />Being me just allows me to be me. I know I'm a naughty T-girl but it's on my terms and, since I prefer to go bare-back, I don't even think about the men being medically clean, every man can lie! Oh that's right, I can take him to court and make him pay! But then that doesn't take the AIDS away from me, that's mine to keep for the rest of my life, regardless of how brief.<br /><br />I also don't worry about dates being discrete, what we do and who else knows it simply carries no weight at all as far as I'm concerned. We allow plenty of facial close-up pictures, which are quite graphic and posted on the web, and we also know most guys will tell other guys every detail of how they conquered us. Every detail! It's a macho thing.<br /><br />It may not be as safe as working at Mickey Dee's (as if a lunatic can't be in there!) but my idea can be way more lucrative! Not to mention it's not as hard for nearly as long! (pun intended!) Just be nice!<br /><br />Be the kind of woman YOU want to be!<br /><br />Please leave a comment, I'm very interested in your opinions.<br />Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7469171350189952538.post-86696504262253556092012-12-23T11:44:00.000-08:002012-12-23T11:44:57.496-08:00Fashions ... and other stuffAs you may or may not know I get most of my feminine dressing ideas from looking at real women but not all the outfits I see, to me anyway, would be wonderfully successful.<br /><br />My latest idea comes from the Weather Channel. The weather girl wore a simple black and white dress that could be made into a very now and seasonal outfit quite easily! T-girl admirers would say it looks absolutely fantastic on most T-girls. I would of course be flattered to hear them say that to me, those words would make any outfit appropriate.<br /><br />I make outfits seasonally timely by simply adding trim, I buy a similar pattern but make the outfits more festive. I will add red and green trim using my sewing machine to this outfit and I think I'll look like an ornament! My gift has always been my legs and T-girl admirers enjoy looking at them and more, so I also shorten the hemlines. I'm sure my outfits are equally appropriate for day-wear despite that fact.<br /><br />I also read this on Yahoo, it comes from the ABC News Blogs; <br />Dental Assistant Fired For Being 'Irresistible', by Alyssa Newcomb, ABC News Blogs<br /><br />Here's the link in case you're interested;<br /><br />http://gma.yahoo.com/blogs/abc-blogs/dental-assistant-fired-being-irresistible-devastated-151724600--abc-news-topstories.html<br /><br />I found it most striking and disturbing that this decision was upheld by the court system! Their decision merely confirms that men can do whatever they want with a woman. Those acts, however, do not just happen in the work place or with genetic women! They happen in private places to weaker men as well, I speak from experience. Now I let men do what they want with me, I'm told I'm asking for it! <br /><br />
Who knows? Maybe I am! But maybe I just learned to accept that I'm different! I mean, what else is a gay man who happens to enjoy wearing frilly intimates like a woman under his man-drab supposed to do? It's really a rhetorical question.<br />
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But on a more serious note, I sincerely hope you and yours have a very Merry Christmas and a glorious, safe, and happy New Year!<br />
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Pax!<br />Billiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08191152071395073265noreply@blogger.com1