As you may or may not know I get most of my feminine dressing ideas from looking at real women but not all the outfits I see, to me anyway, would be wonderfully successful.
My latest idea comes from the Weather Channel. The weather girl wore a simple black and white dress that could be made into a very now and seasonal outfit quite easily! T-girl admirers would say it looks absolutely fantastic on most T-girls. I would of course be flattered to hear them say that to me, those words would make any outfit appropriate.
I make outfits seasonally timely by simply adding trim, I buy a similar pattern but make the outfits more festive. I will add red and green trim using my sewing machine to this outfit and I think I'll look like an ornament! My gift has always been my legs and T-girl admirers enjoy looking at them and more, so I also shorten the hemlines. I'm sure my outfits are equally appropriate for day-wear despite that fact.
I also read this on Yahoo, it comes from the ABC News Blogs;
Dental Assistant Fired For Being 'Irresistible', by Alyssa Newcomb, ABC News Blogs
Here's the link in case you're interested;
http://gma.yahoo.com/blogs/abc-blogs/dental-assistant-fired-being-irresistible-devastated-151724600--abc-news-topstories.html
I found it most striking and disturbing that this decision was upheld by the court system! Their decision merely confirms that men can do whatever they want with a woman. Those acts, however, do not just happen in the work place or with genetic women! They happen in private places to weaker men as well, I speak from experience. Now I let men do what they want with me, I'm told I'm asking for it!
Who knows? Maybe I am! But maybe I just learned to accept that I'm different! I mean, what else is a gay man who happens to enjoy wearing frilly intimates like a woman under his man-drab supposed to do? It's really a rhetorical question.
But on a more serious note, I sincerely hope you and yours have a very Merry Christmas and a glorious, safe, and happy New Year!
Pax!
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Friday, December 21, 2012
T-girls and makeup
Certain T-girls seek out admirers for sex, I'm one and I know it. I know I'm gay and I know I have a strong desire to have sex with a man, cross dressing merely helps me. I also know I need all the help I can get, so, I rely on plenty of makeup and dressing very provocatively.
Anyone, T-girls included, can look absolutely beautiful just by taking proper care of their skin. I'm proof. My advice is that T-girls should go lightly on the Sun exposure and be sure to use great moisturizers! Healthy skin is simply the most beautiful skin there is. Of course you know you're beautiful just the way you are but with these two simple tips in mind, you're even more ready to go!
A girl's mother also tells her daughter (GG) the same thing, she is beautiful just the way she is, but for a T-girl it seems to come only from a more distant relative or an unknown admirer. I guess separation apparently has its value. I can still remember things that were said to me as a gay boy as I bloomed into a transvestite in San Francisco. My aunts and I put lots of weight into what was said about me by my own Mother. Bless her.
At the risk of coming across as shallow, Snookie, of Jersey Shore fame, twitted she was not wearing makeup one day. I have to admit the first thought in my mind was "who cares"? I know I didn't! The idea of T-girls being interested is not so surprising to me, especially when it's a look at a biological and genetic woman. We T-girls are particularly driven to make comparisons between ourselves and real women all the time, and I, as just one type of T-girl, would absolutely hate to come up short when viewed by a perspective or potential admirer.
IMHO, a little too much makeup makes a T-girl like me shout she's available. While playing dress up is fine it's only one part of the total image, actions also play a huge roll and so does makeup! All "real life" T-girls aren't usually bad about wearing makeup, they do just fine for the most part. Wearing "too much" simply has the up-side of free advertising as far as I'm concerned!
All GGs and real women go through this phase as well, and I bet some guys do, too, although that may be to a lesser extent. I remember going through it as I learned I was a femme gay and began wearing female clothes. I no longer suffer this phase, I know what I am.
As far back as high school I used to have to have makeup on every single day or I would simply not go to school. I have one memory that stands out in my mind in particular, I started out going to school but had to turn back. I suddenly realized I had completely forgotten to put on any makeup! I was actually shocked. As I look back now, I ask myself what in the world was I thinking or, more importantly, was I thinking at all?
Why was it so important for me to be wearing makeup? Who would care? The answer of course was a certain group of boys and ME! I realize the boys were just another part of my femme growing pains but they're ones I really learned the most from, I needed them to grow.
Snookie has beautifully soulful brown eyes (like me) but for me to achieve the same kind of eyes I need layers of gunk and false eyelashes. Add to that all kinds of beard cover bronzer and I get that "natural" pretty coppery look! I know I'm a "fake" woman rather than a natural, after all, I am a fake woman rather than a natural one.
But what if all adults told T-girls we were beautiful just the way we are? Well, I say why not just tell us that! Say it often enough and we will believe you! Most T-girls will even thank you for it. Maybe then as T-girls we would also be quick to embrace the strange idea of being a real girl! But this society is not going to do that any time soon.
Getting back to reality, one tip I wish to share with every T-girl is that if you plan to travel, say to a hotel or motel, a well organized makeup kit will be your best companion. A simple, well stocked case can be used and easily carried into any location for that special event. You may even add super-value!
I strongly feel the need to say, read, read, read! Test all brands for everything. I've read someplace you should also have a few face charts to write down what makeup you use for a reference. I recommend you also take plenty of facial pictures to compliment those references. Remember, don't be intimidated into thinking you need to merely have products from big makeup companies only, make your choices then use what you've learned. Try to keep your makeup fresh and keep on learning!
Beauty is NOT so natural for even a real women but we all know it is glamorous, it's usually uplifting, and might just make the difference! Make-overs can also be life changing experiences for most. I hope you've gotten some ideas by reading these recommendations. I want to close by saying every T-girl is beautiful just the way she is.
Please let me know what you think of my writing.
Anyone, T-girls included, can look absolutely beautiful just by taking proper care of their skin. I'm proof. My advice is that T-girls should go lightly on the Sun exposure and be sure to use great moisturizers! Healthy skin is simply the most beautiful skin there is. Of course you know you're beautiful just the way you are but with these two simple tips in mind, you're even more ready to go!
A girl's mother also tells her daughter (GG) the same thing, she is beautiful just the way she is, but for a T-girl it seems to come only from a more distant relative or an unknown admirer. I guess separation apparently has its value. I can still remember things that were said to me as a gay boy as I bloomed into a transvestite in San Francisco. My aunts and I put lots of weight into what was said about me by my own Mother. Bless her.
At the risk of coming across as shallow, Snookie, of Jersey Shore fame, twitted she was not wearing makeup one day. I have to admit the first thought in my mind was "who cares"? I know I didn't! The idea of T-girls being interested is not so surprising to me, especially when it's a look at a biological and genetic woman. We T-girls are particularly driven to make comparisons between ourselves and real women all the time, and I, as just one type of T-girl, would absolutely hate to come up short when viewed by a perspective or potential admirer.
IMHO, a little too much makeup makes a T-girl like me shout she's available. While playing dress up is fine it's only one part of the total image, actions also play a huge roll and so does makeup! All "real life" T-girls aren't usually bad about wearing makeup, they do just fine for the most part. Wearing "too much" simply has the up-side of free advertising as far as I'm concerned!
All GGs and real women go through this phase as well, and I bet some guys do, too, although that may be to a lesser extent. I remember going through it as I learned I was a femme gay and began wearing female clothes. I no longer suffer this phase, I know what I am.
As far back as high school I used to have to have makeup on every single day or I would simply not go to school. I have one memory that stands out in my mind in particular, I started out going to school but had to turn back. I suddenly realized I had completely forgotten to put on any makeup! I was actually shocked. As I look back now, I ask myself what in the world was I thinking or, more importantly, was I thinking at all?
Why was it so important for me to be wearing makeup? Who would care? The answer of course was a certain group of boys and ME! I realize the boys were just another part of my femme growing pains but they're ones I really learned the most from, I needed them to grow.
Snookie has beautifully soulful brown eyes (like me) but for me to achieve the same kind of eyes I need layers of gunk and false eyelashes. Add to that all kinds of beard cover bronzer and I get that "natural" pretty coppery look! I know I'm a "fake" woman rather than a natural, after all, I am a fake woman rather than a natural one.
But what if all adults told T-girls we were beautiful just the way we are? Well, I say why not just tell us that! Say it often enough and we will believe you! Most T-girls will even thank you for it. Maybe then as T-girls we would also be quick to embrace the strange idea of being a real girl! But this society is not going to do that any time soon.
Getting back to reality, one tip I wish to share with every T-girl is that if you plan to travel, say to a hotel or motel, a well organized makeup kit will be your best companion. A simple, well stocked case can be used and easily carried into any location for that special event. You may even add super-value!
I strongly feel the need to say, read, read, read! Test all brands for everything. I've read someplace you should also have a few face charts to write down what makeup you use for a reference. I recommend you also take plenty of facial pictures to compliment those references. Remember, don't be intimidated into thinking you need to merely have products from big makeup companies only, make your choices then use what you've learned. Try to keep your makeup fresh and keep on learning!
Beauty is NOT so natural for even a real women but we all know it is glamorous, it's usually uplifting, and might just make the difference! Make-overs can also be life changing experiences for most. I hope you've gotten some ideas by reading these recommendations. I want to close by saying every T-girl is beautiful just the way she is.
Please let me know what you think of my writing.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
As I put on my day-dress
It's becoming very accepted to express personal sexual preferences these days. As you may or may not know my preferences include wearing a dress and makeup then allowing myself to get picked up so I can behave very naughty while being very NSA for very vulgar and demanding men .. without question! I'm sure that's just my need to be humiliated coming through.
Doing the "dirty deed" in private seems to workout best for everyone and, in order to remove any and all doubts about me, I confirm I'm a male to female cross dresser who is firmly a bottom gay homosexual. I tell every potential "date" those facts well before we actually "do it". I think that removes all doubts.
My close friends, despite the way I approach the issue, all tell me I have low morals and zero self-respect. I happen to think my morals are exactly correct and my compass is precisely where it ought to be. After all, I AM a cross dressing gay man and I simply "do it" for all other interested men regardless of their race, religion or endowment. I do not discriminate and while I'm hoping for another LTR, I also do not wish to digress.
Most of my days (as opposed to my nights) are consumed by reading books, magazines, and periodicals. I especially enjoy T-articles. Wonder why that is, LOL! I also like to think of myself as a writer. I enjoy "personals" from all sides of the gender issue and I get most of my writing ideas through those same personals. What I've noticed, however, is that a large and notable segment of women-looking-for-men (ISO) have what I can only call an impossible specification list about what a female expects from a guy. While this "list of requirements" rarely makes me laugh out loud, it does make me smile. I simply wonder how a man can possibly meet all the obligations put on him by a woman who is a stranger to him?
I also wonder if these women bother to ask themselves before posting; Do they really want a nice guy? Might they be locked into a fantasy, ergo the wish list? Do they want a guy with a gigantic cock who is also a heavy cumer? And do they want him forever?
I know I would absolutely love a man fitting that last description! Ouch!
IMHO, these demands show me a kind of rigidity and a tendency to lack any compromise. This happens during face to face meetings as well and almost always spells defeat. It's exactly the same for my selective T-girl friends. It is because of these unrealistic demands that most T-girls do not get a response from an honest, good, or decent guy in the first place. I mean just imagine, what "other" thing could a "good" man possibly want from a female? Care to venture a guess?
The likelihood of EVER getting a serious response from an honest, good, or decent guy is pretty slim. That's because the guy might feel he's gonna come up short, or he has other issues like being married with children. He simply moves on to the next available piece because he still wants to get off! This single, specifically-specified, relationship is doomed to fail from the get-go unless it follows the purpose of the commonly accepted hook-up but that's not likely.
As an FYI, an LTR seems more likely in today's society so long as it's kept private. I do not kiss and tell and do not recommend anyone else to either!
It's been my experience that most GG's, along with a few T-girl friends of mine, constantly re-define what they expect from a man. For his part, the guy ends up thinking he is expected to constantly guess what those expectations were. Many types of woman never stop re-defining their expectations or changing their old ones to be far different from what they originally defined them to be! The result: the man, doing the best and right thing, ends up with a ball and chain which lasts as long as he allows it. Until he eventually gets fed-up with her and goes elsewhere, he feels both obligated and stuck.
That stuck-ness is my cue, that's where I fit in! I'm cheaply adorned and he has singled me out for a meaningless moment of sexual release. I can accept that. As a side note, however, perhaps he has something against his wife, ergo, his sex may be kinda violent in its own way, so I need to accept that as well. If the shoe fits, wear it! I do! I merely accommodate him.
I have no intention to offend anyone by writing this, I simply found an article on-line and reflected on it as I put on my dress and poured my morning coffee.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Doing the "dirty deed" in private seems to workout best for everyone and, in order to remove any and all doubts about me, I confirm I'm a male to female cross dresser who is firmly a bottom gay homosexual. I tell every potential "date" those facts well before we actually "do it". I think that removes all doubts.
My close friends, despite the way I approach the issue, all tell me I have low morals and zero self-respect. I happen to think my morals are exactly correct and my compass is precisely where it ought to be. After all, I AM a cross dressing gay man and I simply "do it" for all other interested men regardless of their race, religion or endowment. I do not discriminate and while I'm hoping for another LTR, I also do not wish to digress.
Most of my days (as opposed to my nights) are consumed by reading books, magazines, and periodicals. I especially enjoy T-articles. Wonder why that is, LOL! I also like to think of myself as a writer. I enjoy "personals" from all sides of the gender issue and I get most of my writing ideas through those same personals. What I've noticed, however, is that a large and notable segment of women-looking-for-men (ISO) have what I can only call an impossible specification list about what a female expects from a guy. While this "list of requirements" rarely makes me laugh out loud, it does make me smile. I simply wonder how a man can possibly meet all the obligations put on him by a woman who is a stranger to him?
I also wonder if these women bother to ask themselves before posting; Do they really want a nice guy? Might they be locked into a fantasy, ergo the wish list? Do they want a guy with a gigantic cock who is also a heavy cumer? And do they want him forever?
I know I would absolutely love a man fitting that last description! Ouch!
IMHO, these demands show me a kind of rigidity and a tendency to lack any compromise. This happens during face to face meetings as well and almost always spells defeat. It's exactly the same for my selective T-girl friends. It is because of these unrealistic demands that most T-girls do not get a response from an honest, good, or decent guy in the first place. I mean just imagine, what "other" thing could a "good" man possibly want from a female? Care to venture a guess?
The likelihood of EVER getting a serious response from an honest, good, or decent guy is pretty slim. That's because the guy might feel he's gonna come up short, or he has other issues like being married with children. He simply moves on to the next available piece because he still wants to get off! This single, specifically-specified, relationship is doomed to fail from the get-go unless it follows the purpose of the commonly accepted hook-up but that's not likely.
As an FYI, an LTR seems more likely in today's society so long as it's kept private. I do not kiss and tell and do not recommend anyone else to either!
It's been my experience that most GG's, along with a few T-girl friends of mine, constantly re-define what they expect from a man. For his part, the guy ends up thinking he is expected to constantly guess what those expectations were. Many types of woman never stop re-defining their expectations or changing their old ones to be far different from what they originally defined them to be! The result: the man, doing the best and right thing, ends up with a ball and chain which lasts as long as he allows it. Until he eventually gets fed-up with her and goes elsewhere, he feels both obligated and stuck.
That stuck-ness is my cue, that's where I fit in! I'm cheaply adorned and he has singled me out for a meaningless moment of sexual release. I can accept that. As a side note, however, perhaps he has something against his wife, ergo, his sex may be kinda violent in its own way, so I need to accept that as well. If the shoe fits, wear it! I do! I merely accommodate him.
I have no intention to offend anyone by writing this, I simply found an article on-line and reflected on it as I put on my dress and poured my morning coffee.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Sandy Hook elementary school
The shooting and massacre of the people in Sandy Hook was terrible. My heartfelt sympathies go out to all the families affected.
While I cried like a baby when I heard the horrible news, this raised many questions in my mind but my main question remains, Why did Adam Lanza do this?
It has been reported he was a smart guy! Was he somehow convinced December 21, 2012, was the end of the world and he was merely "saving" the children? Or, was he just another loony who got his hands on a few guns? We'll probably never know the truth, he's dead.
It matters little what one thinks of him because the gun debates are getting into full swing in DC and other cities while gun sales have spiked all across this country because of the potential to dis-arm citizens. I find that fact not only interesting but very telling! You can read about this activity via most search engines.
Its been said, To ignore a fact does not change it.
I fear Sandy Hook is simply a horrendous tragedy which will be repeated in many cities throughout this nation. I know, I'm pessimistic. In my opinion, however, it's far beyond, and a bit too late, to regulate or legislate. Sadly, I think we're no closer to seeing the end of this and it is but one indicator of our society.
Again, all I can offer is my sympathies. I am soooo sorry!
While I cried like a baby when I heard the horrible news, this raised many questions in my mind but my main question remains, Why did Adam Lanza do this?
It has been reported he was a smart guy! Was he somehow convinced December 21, 2012, was the end of the world and he was merely "saving" the children? Or, was he just another loony who got his hands on a few guns? We'll probably never know the truth, he's dead.
It matters little what one thinks of him because the gun debates are getting into full swing in DC and other cities while gun sales have spiked all across this country because of the potential to dis-arm citizens. I find that fact not only interesting but very telling! You can read about this activity via most search engines.
Its been said, To ignore a fact does not change it.
I fear Sandy Hook is simply a horrendous tragedy which will be repeated in many cities throughout this nation. I know, I'm pessimistic. In my opinion, however, it's far beyond, and a bit too late, to regulate or legislate. Sadly, I think we're no closer to seeing the end of this and it is but one indicator of our society.
Again, all I can offer is my sympathies. I am soooo sorry!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
I just read that Secretary of State Hillary Rodham Clinton delivered a blunt warning to squabbling Balkan leaders. I have absolutely no desire to talk politics here.
I only wish to say I was taken by the picture of her and wondered, does she do the same kinds of things I do? To put it in a more blunt manner, does she suck cock? I know I do, I think Monica did as well.
To me, her public hair style indicates she does, and her public hair style might also be a flag for her hubby Bill. Only she and he knows!
FYI, I think this because I comb my hair the exact same way when I'm done sucking a cock or taking a Golden Shower. I put on a little lipstick and no one knows what I've been up to! Simply said, put on a wig and fix my face makeup afterward and I'm seen as normal by unknowing passers-by despite the fact the man I've done knows I'm a total tramp.
Just curious.
I only wish to say I was taken by the picture of her and wondered, does she do the same kinds of things I do? To put it in a more blunt manner, does she suck cock? I know I do, I think Monica did as well.
To me, her public hair style indicates she does, and her public hair style might also be a flag for her hubby Bill. Only she and he knows!
FYI, I think this because I comb my hair the exact same way when I'm done sucking a cock or taking a Golden Shower. I put on a little lipstick and no one knows what I've been up to! Simply said, put on a wig and fix my face makeup afterward and I'm seen as normal by unknowing passers-by despite the fact the man I've done knows I'm a total tramp.
Just curious.
Saturday, September 22, 2012
My day begins just like any other human.
Not long ago I made a comment to a blog about a man who was diagnosed as trans-sexual by Department of Corrections doctors after being in prison for 20 years. I have no idea what stirred that situation up, except that he wanted the state to pay for his operation. The state in question is Massachusetts, the crime was murder.
I said it mattered little that a tranny serving a 1990 sentence for murdering his wife (we have no details on that) and now wanting a sex change that the MA Dept of Corrections doctors said he qualified for, was no big deal. My logic was, after all is said and done, compared to the expenses already spent catching him, having him go to court and sentencing him, not to mention the stuff he's gotten since being in prison, and the fact his wife is still dead, what does it matter who pays for his sex change?
The public responses ranged everywhere from "let me cut it off and shove it down his throat!", to "isn't MURDER cruel and unusual punishment on the victim?", and "just ask someone to shank his ass...problem solved ... Hopefully someone will before the surgery."
To my post an anonymous poster said, "You also do not see having sex without commitment as no big thing. In reality, without morals and ethics, we have no social contract or rights." I wouldn't disagree except to say I think I'm different than the majority of humanity.
Having said that, my day starts the same as anyone else's, except that I wake up at my leisure by the Sun coming in through my window. It makes little difference if it's 7 AM or 2 PM, I can lay in my snug and warm bed all day if I want. I have no job to go to, no boss to report to, no place I need to be. Some say "I'm lucky", I call it being retired. It's not that much but I worked for it!
I worked for the US government for over 25 years providing "services" and now the same government pays me to do nothing. My retirement is paid with tax dollars, so, thanks goes out to all those who pay taxes, myself included! Without a retirement (limited as it is) I'd have to keep on working and I simply loath Wal-Mart.
Since I retired I thought it safe enough to "come out" and allow my sexual orientation to freely flower. Thinking about my retirement today I'm still, in many ways, providing services, lol! The biggest difference is, I very much like providing them.
I get out of my warm bed dressed in only my panties and my see-through nightgown. I put on my robe, which is floor length and made of silk, my slightly heeled slippers, and walk to the kitchen to make myself some coffee. While I make my coffee I look out my kitchen window and see the parked cars below. Some of the owners are very familiar. When I'm finished starting my brew I go into the living room and look out the picture window to see what the day has in store for me. I see more cars below.
Looking at them reminds me I may get busy later, I'm a biological male who thinks I'm female. I'm a mtf transvestite and I love all men.
As I wait for the coffee, I open my Kindle to the Calendar and look at the times I've set up for any appointments. Some days I barely have time between appointments to change my outfits and fix my makeup, let alone take a shower. Other days I have plenty of time between appointments and some days I have no appointments at all.
I actually appreciate those days without appointments. Maybe it's my age.
I take inventory of my bar as I walk past it because most of my appointments usually involve alcohol and I like to keep it well stocked, I drink alcohol very sparingly. As I pour myself a cup of motivation and sit at the dinning room table, I pull my note pad and write out my grocery list; butter, eggs, cheese, bread, sugar, the usual list of needs. What I need in the way of booze is also written down. I usually have to make a daily stop at the local liquor store because I offer drinks and most men drink alcohol when they come over.
In my coffee I add plenty of cream and sugar, I use them so I can't taste the coffee. I'll have my usual two cups and take my shower. As I dry myself off, I check my reflection in the full length mirror on the bath room door. Despite being a biological male I make sure I'm shaved smooth all over and I look long and hard at myself. I'm looking for any tell-tale signs of advancing age. Perhaps my stomach is too swollen for a corset, or maybe my chest looks a bit odd without the plastic breasts, or my legs are no longer stocking ready. I think I look OK.
The penis between my legs is very tiny and almost unnoticeable. It draws up into my circumcised skin and bending over merely reminds me that I fervently wish I could meet a professional who would remove my testicles! I really have no need for them any more. My penis has become more a clitoris and, while its always been kind of small, its now usually damp. I've become used to the dampness and I simply put an Always brand dry-pad into my panties, then I begin changing my entire bodily looks...
I'm not a 24/7/365 male to female and I live alone, I have nothing of worth to offer save my experiences. My body is simply what gets me noticed, it always has, I just enhance what others like to see.
When I go out to the store I hear the occasional obscenities, I'm not deaf. I sometimes think the person saying them wants me to hear them. Normally they're whispered behind my back but it doesn't seem to matter if I'm window shopping for dresses or in a store buying groceries. I'm used to them, in many ways I actually expect them, and for the most part, I simply ignore them. Usually.
Rarely are the insults yelled at me or the insulters violent confrontationalists. If I think that kinda thing is gonna happen, it'll happen in the parking lot late at night as I walk alone to my car. I simply explain the situation to the check out clerk and ask that I be escorted out. While this request is quite normal, it usually creates problems of its own but most stores ultimately tell someone to walk me out.
Allow me to share a typical experience with you.
To begin, a manager, usually a man, has to get involved so I wait for him and then I have to explain my take on the situation to him .. again. Usually more than one person comes to greet me, I suspect the other person is just curious or a witness. Regardless if the manager, or other person, is a man or woman I get "looked over" from head to toe by both, no comments are made and the facial expressions are blank. I wind up getting escorted by the newest employee or the most timid, or both. The real irony is that even if the guy is a muscle bound brute he may not care for transvestites! Whenever an escort is given to me it does little to alleviate my fears and I ask the clerk to wait as I start my car and drive away.
I'm still very scared and I know I could be followed and raped or killed in my car or beside my apartment building and no one is going to do anything about it except watch or take pictures with a cell phone. I was actually attacked once before. I was "saved" by two policemen but, when I went to thank the person who called them after I got out of the hospital, I was told, "If I had known you were a queer wearing a dress, I would've let them kill you. Don't ever come back here again, faggot." and the door was slammed in my face! So much for humanity!
The beating I took lasted less than an hour and I was lucky, yet it was a horrible experience I will never forget! Reporting any incident to the police, in my mind, merely creates more problems. It matters little because I'm just seen as a man who's dressed like a girl and asking for it! The fact is, I'm a human being, a simple person who just happens to be a male to female transvestite, I'm not a prostitute!
Because I like to have sex with men I'm accused of having low morals. Here's an FYI for ya, I don't have sex with every man I meet but I have many man-friends who admire me for having low morals! Interesting don't ya think? All of these guys know what I am, they're usually married and they're willing to give me their semen. Apparently they don't get blow jobs at home so they "let" me give it to them. Most leave me a tip as well. I wouldn't go so far as to call what I do work, it simply lets me be a woman and I feel good about that.
What I learned is that what I do just happens to pay part of my rent, it allows me to have utilities, cable TV, a Play Station 3 with lots of the latest games, and, best of all, it lets me meet different admiring men. I like the part about meeting different admirers the best! I'm a male to female transvestite, I can't get pregnant or have children, and I'm not so sure I even want children anyway! I have found word of mouth (so to say) to be very effective but, more importantly, the stories firmly allow me to be a woman.
Let me leave you with this tid-bit of info; if an established man-friend wishes to bring a new man to me, my only requirement is that they accompany this new guy and introduce us. During that introduction we can all sit and I'll fix drinks, we have that drink and discuss his and my preferences for rubbers and lube, STDs, what he likes and what I am. Everything is known well beforehand and there's no surprises.
Another tid-bit of info, all men may be created equally but they don't remain equal! They're very individualistic regarding their sexual behavior and mannerisms, and some are cheap!
I said it mattered little that a tranny serving a 1990 sentence for murdering his wife (we have no details on that) and now wanting a sex change that the MA Dept of Corrections doctors said he qualified for, was no big deal. My logic was, after all is said and done, compared to the expenses already spent catching him, having him go to court and sentencing him, not to mention the stuff he's gotten since being in prison, and the fact his wife is still dead, what does it matter who pays for his sex change?
The public responses ranged everywhere from "let me cut it off and shove it down his throat!", to "isn't MURDER cruel and unusual punishment on the victim?", and "just ask someone to shank his ass...problem solved ... Hopefully someone will before the surgery."
To my post an anonymous poster said, "You also do not see having sex without commitment as no big thing. In reality, without morals and ethics, we have no social contract or rights." I wouldn't disagree except to say I think I'm different than the majority of humanity.
Having said that, my day starts the same as anyone else's, except that I wake up at my leisure by the Sun coming in through my window. It makes little difference if it's 7 AM or 2 PM, I can lay in my snug and warm bed all day if I want. I have no job to go to, no boss to report to, no place I need to be. Some say "I'm lucky", I call it being retired. It's not that much but I worked for it!
I worked for the US government for over 25 years providing "services" and now the same government pays me to do nothing. My retirement is paid with tax dollars, so, thanks goes out to all those who pay taxes, myself included! Without a retirement (limited as it is) I'd have to keep on working and I simply loath Wal-Mart.
Since I retired I thought it safe enough to "come out" and allow my sexual orientation to freely flower. Thinking about my retirement today I'm still, in many ways, providing services, lol! The biggest difference is, I very much like providing them.
I get out of my warm bed dressed in only my panties and my see-through nightgown. I put on my robe, which is floor length and made of silk, my slightly heeled slippers, and walk to the kitchen to make myself some coffee. While I make my coffee I look out my kitchen window and see the parked cars below. Some of the owners are very familiar. When I'm finished starting my brew I go into the living room and look out the picture window to see what the day has in store for me. I see more cars below.
Looking at them reminds me I may get busy later, I'm a biological male who thinks I'm female. I'm a mtf transvestite and I love all men.
As I wait for the coffee, I open my Kindle to the Calendar and look at the times I've set up for any appointments. Some days I barely have time between appointments to change my outfits and fix my makeup, let alone take a shower. Other days I have plenty of time between appointments and some days I have no appointments at all.
I actually appreciate those days without appointments. Maybe it's my age.
I take inventory of my bar as I walk past it because most of my appointments usually involve alcohol and I like to keep it well stocked, I drink alcohol very sparingly. As I pour myself a cup of motivation and sit at the dinning room table, I pull my note pad and write out my grocery list; butter, eggs, cheese, bread, sugar, the usual list of needs. What I need in the way of booze is also written down. I usually have to make a daily stop at the local liquor store because I offer drinks and most men drink alcohol when they come over.
In my coffee I add plenty of cream and sugar, I use them so I can't taste the coffee. I'll have my usual two cups and take my shower. As I dry myself off, I check my reflection in the full length mirror on the bath room door. Despite being a biological male I make sure I'm shaved smooth all over and I look long and hard at myself. I'm looking for any tell-tale signs of advancing age. Perhaps my stomach is too swollen for a corset, or maybe my chest looks a bit odd without the plastic breasts, or my legs are no longer stocking ready. I think I look OK.
The penis between my legs is very tiny and almost unnoticeable. It draws up into my circumcised skin and bending over merely reminds me that I fervently wish I could meet a professional who would remove my testicles! I really have no need for them any more. My penis has become more a clitoris and, while its always been kind of small, its now usually damp. I've become used to the dampness and I simply put an Always brand dry-pad into my panties, then I begin changing my entire bodily looks...
I'm not a 24/7/365 male to female and I live alone, I have nothing of worth to offer save my experiences. My body is simply what gets me noticed, it always has, I just enhance what others like to see.
When I go out to the store I hear the occasional obscenities, I'm not deaf. I sometimes think the person saying them wants me to hear them. Normally they're whispered behind my back but it doesn't seem to matter if I'm window shopping for dresses or in a store buying groceries. I'm used to them, in many ways I actually expect them, and for the most part, I simply ignore them. Usually.
Rarely are the insults yelled at me or the insulters violent confrontationalists. If I think that kinda thing is gonna happen, it'll happen in the parking lot late at night as I walk alone to my car. I simply explain the situation to the check out clerk and ask that I be escorted out. While this request is quite normal, it usually creates problems of its own but most stores ultimately tell someone to walk me out.
Allow me to share a typical experience with you.
To begin, a manager, usually a man, has to get involved so I wait for him and then I have to explain my take on the situation to him .. again. Usually more than one person comes to greet me, I suspect the other person is just curious or a witness. Regardless if the manager, or other person, is a man or woman I get "looked over" from head to toe by both, no comments are made and the facial expressions are blank. I wind up getting escorted by the newest employee or the most timid, or both. The real irony is that even if the guy is a muscle bound brute he may not care for transvestites! Whenever an escort is given to me it does little to alleviate my fears and I ask the clerk to wait as I start my car and drive away.
I'm still very scared and I know I could be followed and raped or killed in my car or beside my apartment building and no one is going to do anything about it except watch or take pictures with a cell phone. I was actually attacked once before. I was "saved" by two policemen but, when I went to thank the person who called them after I got out of the hospital, I was told, "If I had known you were a queer wearing a dress, I would've let them kill you. Don't ever come back here again, faggot." and the door was slammed in my face! So much for humanity!
The beating I took lasted less than an hour and I was lucky, yet it was a horrible experience I will never forget! Reporting any incident to the police, in my mind, merely creates more problems. It matters little because I'm just seen as a man who's dressed like a girl and asking for it! The fact is, I'm a human being, a simple person who just happens to be a male to female transvestite, I'm not a prostitute!
Because I like to have sex with men I'm accused of having low morals. Here's an FYI for ya, I don't have sex with every man I meet but I have many man-friends who admire me for having low morals! Interesting don't ya think? All of these guys know what I am, they're usually married and they're willing to give me their semen. Apparently they don't get blow jobs at home so they "let" me give it to them. Most leave me a tip as well. I wouldn't go so far as to call what I do work, it simply lets me be a woman and I feel good about that.
What I learned is that what I do just happens to pay part of my rent, it allows me to have utilities, cable TV, a Play Station 3 with lots of the latest games, and, best of all, it lets me meet different admiring men. I like the part about meeting different admirers the best! I'm a male to female transvestite, I can't get pregnant or have children, and I'm not so sure I even want children anyway! I have found word of mouth (so to say) to be very effective but, more importantly, the stories firmly allow me to be a woman.
Let me leave you with this tid-bit of info; if an established man-friend wishes to bring a new man to me, my only requirement is that they accompany this new guy and introduce us. During that introduction we can all sit and I'll fix drinks, we have that drink and discuss his and my preferences for rubbers and lube, STDs, what he likes and what I am. Everything is known well beforehand and there's no surprises.
Another tid-bit of info, all men may be created equally but they don't remain equal! They're very individualistic regarding their sexual behavior and mannerisms, and some are cheap!
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Witch-hunt in Iraq or an Islamic justified killing?
A BBC investigation has revealed Iraqi law enforcement agencies are involved in the systematic persecution of gay men and women in the country. It's a very terminal and deadly persecution.
Activists claim dozens, if not hundreds, of gay people have been killed while the Western-backed government turns a blind eye - or worse. I can only imagine what "worse" the USA can do! The UN tells the BBC that neglecting these acts of violence makes the Iraqi state a "perpetrator" in the crimes, however, victims are in hiding. Reality sets in.
In post-occupation Iraq, where we hunted then hung Saddam and US troops left for Afghanistan, being gay, or even looking gay, can be a death sentence. Of course it depends on who makes that call.
It's very difficult to determine how many homosexuals have been killed in so called "honor killings" by their own families let alone the number of gays (suspected or otherwise!) who have been killed in private at the hands of the militias.
One BBC investigation has found that law enforcement agencies are actively involved in ongoing, systematic, and organized violence against gay people while the Iragi government heartily refuses to admit to it. Can you say, "Stonewalling"?
Once targeted, most gay people in Iraq have nowhere to hide. There is only one safe house in all of Baghdad (which is pretty big!) that can house a mere three people. I find that hard to believe but because other shelters have been raided and shut down by the government, the names of the group operating that safe house has not been publicly named, nor will others who operate similar houses.
In other news ....
An Israeli filmmaker living in California went into hiding after a YouTube trailer of his movie attacking Islam's prophet Muhammad sparked angry assaults by ultra-conservative Muslims on U.S. missions in Egypt and Libya. The trailer has been on YouTube since July!
The U.S. ambassador to Libya and three American members of his staff were killed during this uprising and I think it odd that this was in sync with 911 in America.
Wonder what that says?
Speaking by phone Tuesday from an undisclosed location, the film writer and director, 56-year-old Sam Bacile, remained defiant saying Islam is a cancer and that his film is intended to be a provocative political statement condemning the religion. It is, however, not religious.
His movie has only been shown once to a nearly empty theater in Hollywood. The AP said Bacile was "apologetic" about the ambassador's death but blamed lax security and the extremists who perpetrated the attack, "I feel the security system at the embassies is no good," he said. "America should do something to change that."
I see nothing needs to change, we do the best we can to protect our own.
President Obama condemned the attacks in a statement Wednesday but it is said he made a clear reference to the "Innocence of Muslims" film as well. He said, "While the United States rejects efforts to denigrate the religious beliefs of others, we must all unequivocally oppose the kind of senseless violence that took the lives of these public servants,"
While I feel a great sorrow for the loss of life, I fail to see the reference.
It was also reported that Secretary of State Hillary Rodham Clinton also referenced the movie and said, "Some have sought to justify this vicious behavior, along with the protest that took place at our embassy in Cairo yesterday, as a response to inflammatory material posted on the Internet,"
Ms. Clinton added, "America's commitment to religious tolerance goes back to the very beginning of our nation. But let me be clear. There is no justification for this. None."
IMO, do be prepared to see US ground troops go into Iraq very soon. The cost will surely be staggering, all of our taxes will rise, but it will change nothing for trans-persons.
Activists claim dozens, if not hundreds, of gay people have been killed while the Western-backed government turns a blind eye - or worse. I can only imagine what "worse" the USA can do! The UN tells the BBC that neglecting these acts of violence makes the Iraqi state a "perpetrator" in the crimes, however, victims are in hiding. Reality sets in.
In post-occupation Iraq, where we hunted then hung Saddam and US troops left for Afghanistan, being gay, or even looking gay, can be a death sentence. Of course it depends on who makes that call.
It's very difficult to determine how many homosexuals have been killed in so called "honor killings" by their own families let alone the number of gays (suspected or otherwise!) who have been killed in private at the hands of the militias.
One BBC investigation has found that law enforcement agencies are actively involved in ongoing, systematic, and organized violence against gay people while the Iragi government heartily refuses to admit to it. Can you say, "Stonewalling"?
Once targeted, most gay people in Iraq have nowhere to hide. There is only one safe house in all of Baghdad (which is pretty big!) that can house a mere three people. I find that hard to believe but because other shelters have been raided and shut down by the government, the names of the group operating that safe house has not been publicly named, nor will others who operate similar houses.
In other news ....
An Israeli filmmaker living in California went into hiding after a YouTube trailer of his movie attacking Islam's prophet Muhammad sparked angry assaults by ultra-conservative Muslims on U.S. missions in Egypt and Libya. The trailer has been on YouTube since July!
The U.S. ambassador to Libya and three American members of his staff were killed during this uprising and I think it odd that this was in sync with 911 in America.
Wonder what that says?
Speaking by phone Tuesday from an undisclosed location, the film writer and director, 56-year-old Sam Bacile, remained defiant saying Islam is a cancer and that his film is intended to be a provocative political statement condemning the religion. It is, however, not religious.
His movie has only been shown once to a nearly empty theater in Hollywood. The AP said Bacile was "apologetic" about the ambassador's death but blamed lax security and the extremists who perpetrated the attack, "I feel the security system at the embassies is no good," he said. "America should do something to change that."
I see nothing needs to change, we do the best we can to protect our own.
President Obama condemned the attacks in a statement Wednesday but it is said he made a clear reference to the "Innocence of Muslims" film as well. He said, "While the United States rejects efforts to denigrate the religious beliefs of others, we must all unequivocally oppose the kind of senseless violence that took the lives of these public servants,"
While I feel a great sorrow for the loss of life, I fail to see the reference.
It was also reported that Secretary of State Hillary Rodham Clinton also referenced the movie and said, "Some have sought to justify this vicious behavior, along with the protest that took place at our embassy in Cairo yesterday, as a response to inflammatory material posted on the Internet,"
Ms. Clinton added, "America's commitment to religious tolerance goes back to the very beginning of our nation. But let me be clear. There is no justification for this. None."
IMO, do be prepared to see US ground troops go into Iraq very soon. The cost will surely be staggering, all of our taxes will rise, but it will change nothing for trans-persons.
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