There are more than
just a few people (both cis-men and cis-women) who say men like me are merely
confused. I MUST be gay because I let
men fuck me and I like wearing women's clothes.
Thanks for that mind-set goes to Madison Avenue and the socialization
process! Apparently we've all taken the
training well!
I enjoyed wearing
women's clothes at a very young age and Cross Dressed although I don't know
why. Perhaps I just "thought"
I was a female or it was the fact I grew up in a "liberal" city, San Francisco. What I know was that as soon as I put female
clothes on I was strongly attracted to them.
I grew to absolutely love their tightness not to mention the shoes! As I matured I put on some makeup and the
moment I saw "me" reflected in a mirror I knew I was born to be
female! I was a woman for all practical
purposes and intense. I was immediately
convinced!
I know there's more
to being a woman than just getting fucked but it's now a kind of badge of honor for
me to get fucked. It may be said that
I'm just a queer because of my desire to have sex with men but my wearing a dress does
not just mark me as a "femme", I simply enjoy sex with men! I still don’t have a clue as to why I enjoy
acting like a female but who really knows?
I say, who really cares? Just get
over it! I merely do what most genetic
girls (GG) of this world do for most cis-males in private anyway! Does sucking a man or boy's cock mean I'm a queer or a girl? Whatever!
Life really is too short to be concerned about the many "whys"
and many smarter people than me already wrote about that stuff! I merely have a public education.
It is through my
"desired" sexual preference for men, who've used me (or abused me!)
as a woman, that I've gotten another unique impression. I've gathered men, most men both "straight" or gay, in this polite society do not wish to make babies!
To me, at least that justifies the need for me to be a bottom! It's obvious to everyone I can't pro-create! Being a queer could be my honest role but I'm still
seen as a trans-woman by society in general because of my choice of dress. While I say 'whatever' I also know the murder
rates of trans-gendered women keeps on going!
Why is that so do you suppose?
Why doesn't this society simply allow men who don't wish to create
babies hook-up with transgendered women?
The men who "think" they're women (like me) and are willing to
behave like a woman (like me) can't procreate in the first place and we're willing to let men fuck
us! So what's all the fuse about? True, all MTF trannies aren't looking to get
fucked by a man but I'm citing the many MTF's (like me) who do. So again I ask, why is that not possible? In a word, it has nothing to do with
"passing" (and to be honest some of us don't!) but it has everything to do with the
socialization process. I simply enjoy looking
sexy as a woman (I'm a femme) and I want men, all men, to want me. Period!
Perhaps there's a good reason why things are the way they are but I
don't buy it! In order to address the
murder issue in another way perhaps it is because of the ability to pass so
well that many MTF Cross Dressers have naturally. IMO it's the unspoken lie a "fake"
woman allows a real man to believe long before they copulate.
Allow me to share. Speaking for myself,
I have testicles and a dick (although small!) and present myself as a woman, therefor, I think of myself as a "fake"! I believe I'm "fake" only because I
need falsies to enhance my breasts, I need a waist cincher to enhance my waist,
I use makeup to make me look like a woman and my hips lack! In short, it takes more than a little effort to make me a woman but the
facts are what they are! Perhaps I am a queer but I'm no molester!
But what-ever!
IMHO, no one enjoys
admitting they made a mistake and that is especially true when it comes to
a sex partner! When a man passes as a woman 24/7
well, it can lead to confusion! Not for
the man in the dress but for the "true man" involved. I seriously doubt anybody likes that and the
lie simply leads to other things, like murder.
Not many people enjoy being lied to.
To avoid this confusion (and the subsequent murder) I tell all men who are interested in me up-front
that I'm a boy or a man in a dress (I do dress to attract men!) and surprisingly
most tell me they know what I am and they're still interested despite the
fact I just told them I'm a "fake"!
IMO, they desperately want to fuck something and I merely represent that
something! Some of the people who say
that I have "low morals" are gay men but it's especially
cis-women who are significant others or wives!
I guess that's true of course, but again I say, so what? I know I get lots of "dates"!
Most men I've met
have large "man dicks" (including cross dressed transvestites) and most women have smaller dicks called clitorises and they
also have a vagina and all the associated plumbing, I have neither. That's simple biology and a
fact again. Women (genetic women)
can catch an STD from any man the same as I can but the main difference between
a real woman and me is they can become pregnant and I can't! Every man who becomes a "date" of
mine, including the men who pick me up as I window shop, knows that about me
immediately because I tell them, I'm a
"fake"! It's simply amazing to
me to think men of all kinds (straight and otherwise) still want a meaningless blow job or to have sex with me! So what does that say about this civil
society?
Also noteworthy, the
same as a genetic woman, "dates" I do get do not want to be seen talking with me afterward so while his large cock may hurt my
"man-pussy" or it chokes me, I still want to be a woman! Who knows what that says! Maybe after all is said and done
I'm not Trans at all, I am just a queer who wears a dress! Again I say, so what, what diff does it make? Life's too sort to
dwell on all the whys and wherefores, I have a brief time to live my life!
Nike has a saying,
"Just do it!", I recommend you follow that advice and you won't be
sorry you did!
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
Caitlyn Jenner
I'm proud of
her! She came out as a woman despite
having all that fame and money as a man.
I'm actually kind of jealous of her.
I see that many in the Trans-world and beyond don't care much for Caitlyn, she has too much resource they say. Too much cash and all to help her transition. Well, she did transition and she did so at a time in her life that she felt was appropriate.
I say, damn the torpedos, full speed ahead! You go girl!
I see that many in the Trans-world and beyond don't care much for Caitlyn, she has too much resource they say. Too much cash and all to help her transition. Well, she did transition and she did so at a time in her life that she felt was appropriate.
I say, damn the torpedos, full speed ahead! You go girl!
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Being a girl
11:10 AM
There are many, many
men throughout the world who wish to be female but there are just as many who
only wish to look like a female, both types are very different in their
respective approach to men but they both live in the "closet". Still, they have no clue as to why they feel
the way they do. I know because I lived
my entire life growing up in such a closet! I feel I'm Transgendered. Lots of male to female (MTF) cross dressers I
knew wanted to be female and most begin their female lives cross dressing at a
very young age (pre-sex) and they think getting fucked in any way by a man is
disgusting! I cross dressed in private
to express my feeling of being a girl but I don't know where my feelings to be
a female came from! I do know they were
very strong and I was attracted to boys much more than girls! With boys I was "made" to do things for them as a girl (but I was quite willing) but with girls I just felt like a
friend.
Will wonders never cease?
Will wonders never cease?
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
I admit I'm a bit vexed by a comment
I read many blogs on-line and I must admit I'm a bit vexed by a comment I read the other day. The commenter says he has many gay people as friends but goes on to say they're "all wrong", they need help", and are "walking evil".
Evil? That single comment shouted volumes about that guy to me!
I read further and after reading I know I would not have the where-with-all to try and change his mind in any meaningful way. I also would have no desire to regardless if I had the smarts or motivation or not! If we were to meet at a party, whether I be in man-drab or colorful feminine drag, I think I would have wimped out and simply changed the subject. Failing that, I would simply walk away as I certainly would not want to hear any of his diatribe! He may be merely talking about gay people.
My journey to become me (a cross dresser) was really not all that tough and arduous. I don't want anyone to think too poorly of me but when I was 10 or so, before it made sense, I routinely put on makeup and wore dresses in secret. From what I saw looking back at me in the hall mirror I made a very convincing woman! That woman eventually became the real and honest me. As time went by and I gained experience from men and my dresses became sinfully short and my makeup became very heavy. They all told me they liked me looking this way! I would do that for them, among other things, and afterwards freshen my makeup and go to rather questionable places and show myself off. I was clearly asking for it! In my own awkward way I was trying to prove I was just as good as any "real" woman out there and I went to obvious places to get that proof.
No matter where I went or what I 'looked' like there always seemed to be a man to oblige me, usually in the dark, but he didn't seem to mind leaving a total man-mess on my face! I learned a lot about men then! I was rarely spoken to after the deed was done, rarely thanked, and they're all way bigger "down there" than I ever was! It's been that way my whole life. The biggest thing I learned was that most men are simply eager and they wish to please us but they don't want to talk about it! Ever!
During the process of playing the "fallen woman" I learned even more about my true self. I learned I absolutely loved feeling weak and the weaker men made me feel the better! It was also strange because I also felt much more feminine! I fantasised to have a train of sixteen men pulled on me at the same time (looked forward to it actually!) where I would be helpless to stop them. I became a total cum-whore. I even advertised in the personals I would do adult male porno parties as a female! I was only able to do a few but I simply didn't catch anything more than crabs, I can't explain that except to say I was very lucky I didn't catch a life altering STD! During sex I am simply shameless about my playing a woman and I have lab tests run today to make certain my sexual health is clear!
Do not sell yourself short, YOU are EXACTLY the break you've been looking for! If you can not relax or express yourself where you are, leave! Get out of there! Find a place of your own regardless if that turns out to be your car or a run down apartment on the bad side of town. You can become a woman! Eventually, you will find a place that allows you to be yourself, even if that's just you naked behind closed doors, we can't all 'pass'!
It's taken a molester, the San Francisco criminal court system, many shrinks, the loss of my biological family and a few other bumps along my journey to become me, but I can finally and firmly say I accept me as I am. By the way, most of the men who meet me also accept me. Now I can half jokingly say, I'm a slow learner but I've surely learned! Hindsight being 20-20, I'm sorry to say it took me so long to accept me as I truly am because I wasted a lot of my life living in a closet and hiding! True, it's been a long slug and, mainly because of society, I still do not have stability in my life.
In fairness, I've not become that free spirit we all read about in the "ever after" books. As far as I'm concerned those kinds of stories are extremely rare or outright fairy tales and are just made up to make us feel better. I'm a grown adult now and I make myself feel better! I was duped by society and corrected by my biological family, I was married for many years and created a family of my own. Today, my wife and I are divorced and the children have no difficulty accepting me but they do have a problem accepting my ideals. I have moved out and become somewhat independent but still without the stability, lmao! At 62, I fiercely believe that stability is not going to be forth-coming from this polite society any time soon, yet it doesn't seem to matter either.
Allow me to share this; after my divorce I was fortunate enough to be the "feminine" roommate to four men. Yes, they knew about me and yes, we did copulate every night. They took turns with me! One of these guys, however, had the mental maturity of a 12 year old boy, lmao! He would berate me because he wanted me to dress as I did and stand on a corner and "rent" myself out! I was to become his gay cross dressed prostitute and oddly enough he actually expected me to comply! I told him I was to be his live-in sex doll, not to provide for him! He moved out because he said he didn't want to live with a queer who couldn't also be a f**king whore! I say "good riddance"! We eventually lost that house because of a death, otherwise things are OK.
That you may very well represent THE break you've been looking for I would fervently recommend some caution! I have to admit I'm not so sure that my cross dressing will ever be a great source of knowledge for any one, I only know that as I grew up my feeling of being female was a source of great confusion for me. Between my family, my friends and societal norms, coupled with my own mixed up sexual feelings, I made plenty of mistakes! But I also learned! After many years of in-fighting with myself I simply came to accept who and what I was, me! I can not take full credit, however, for it was through my personal growth and an experience I had as a young boy that I gained my current perspective!
While I agree that it is too bad about the thinking evolution of our "civilized society", IMO it’s actually kind of sad really, I originally hoped to assist in the advancement of human evolution and make a difference but I'm afraid I gave up on my plan to re-educate the masses long ago. It seems our “civil society” has not made much progress since Christ cleared the temple! I firmly believe that discrimination of any person by any other person, regardless of the reason, is always not good! Even "wrong thinking people" have a story and they deserve to at least be heard! All prayers are answered, sometimes the answer is no. Life IS finite!
I'm flattered to be considered a "female"!
Evil? That single comment shouted volumes about that guy to me!
I read further and after reading I know I would not have the where-with-all to try and change his mind in any meaningful way. I also would have no desire to regardless if I had the smarts or motivation or not! If we were to meet at a party, whether I be in man-drab or colorful feminine drag, I think I would have wimped out and simply changed the subject. Failing that, I would simply walk away as I certainly would not want to hear any of his diatribe! He may be merely talking about gay people.
My journey to become me (a cross dresser) was really not all that tough and arduous. I don't want anyone to think too poorly of me but when I was 10 or so, before it made sense, I routinely put on makeup and wore dresses in secret. From what I saw looking back at me in the hall mirror I made a very convincing woman! That woman eventually became the real and honest me. As time went by and I gained experience from men and my dresses became sinfully short and my makeup became very heavy. They all told me they liked me looking this way! I would do that for them, among other things, and afterwards freshen my makeup and go to rather questionable places and show myself off. I was clearly asking for it! In my own awkward way I was trying to prove I was just as good as any "real" woman out there and I went to obvious places to get that proof.
No matter where I went or what I 'looked' like there always seemed to be a man to oblige me, usually in the dark, but he didn't seem to mind leaving a total man-mess on my face! I learned a lot about men then! I was rarely spoken to after the deed was done, rarely thanked, and they're all way bigger "down there" than I ever was! It's been that way my whole life. The biggest thing I learned was that most men are simply eager and they wish to please us but they don't want to talk about it! Ever!
During the process of playing the "fallen woman" I learned even more about my true self. I learned I absolutely loved feeling weak and the weaker men made me feel the better! It was also strange because I also felt much more feminine! I fantasised to have a train of sixteen men pulled on me at the same time (looked forward to it actually!) where I would be helpless to stop them. I became a total cum-whore. I even advertised in the personals I would do adult male porno parties as a female! I was only able to do a few but I simply didn't catch anything more than crabs, I can't explain that except to say I was very lucky I didn't catch a life altering STD! During sex I am simply shameless about my playing a woman and I have lab tests run today to make certain my sexual health is clear!
Do not sell yourself short, YOU are EXACTLY the break you've been looking for! If you can not relax or express yourself where you are, leave! Get out of there! Find a place of your own regardless if that turns out to be your car or a run down apartment on the bad side of town. You can become a woman! Eventually, you will find a place that allows you to be yourself, even if that's just you naked behind closed doors, we can't all 'pass'!
It's taken a molester, the San Francisco criminal court system, many shrinks, the loss of my biological family and a few other bumps along my journey to become me, but I can finally and firmly say I accept me as I am. By the way, most of the men who meet me also accept me. Now I can half jokingly say, I'm a slow learner but I've surely learned! Hindsight being 20-20, I'm sorry to say it took me so long to accept me as I truly am because I wasted a lot of my life living in a closet and hiding! True, it's been a long slug and, mainly because of society, I still do not have stability in my life.
In fairness, I've not become that free spirit we all read about in the "ever after" books. As far as I'm concerned those kinds of stories are extremely rare or outright fairy tales and are just made up to make us feel better. I'm a grown adult now and I make myself feel better! I was duped by society and corrected by my biological family, I was married for many years and created a family of my own. Today, my wife and I are divorced and the children have no difficulty accepting me but they do have a problem accepting my ideals. I have moved out and become somewhat independent but still without the stability, lmao! At 62, I fiercely believe that stability is not going to be forth-coming from this polite society any time soon, yet it doesn't seem to matter either.
Allow me to share this; after my divorce I was fortunate enough to be the "feminine" roommate to four men. Yes, they knew about me and yes, we did copulate every night. They took turns with me! One of these guys, however, had the mental maturity of a 12 year old boy, lmao! He would berate me because he wanted me to dress as I did and stand on a corner and "rent" myself out! I was to become his gay cross dressed prostitute and oddly enough he actually expected me to comply! I told him I was to be his live-in sex doll, not to provide for him! He moved out because he said he didn't want to live with a queer who couldn't also be a f**king whore! I say "good riddance"! We eventually lost that house because of a death, otherwise things are OK.
That you may very well represent THE break you've been looking for I would fervently recommend some caution! I have to admit I'm not so sure that my cross dressing will ever be a great source of knowledge for any one, I only know that as I grew up my feeling of being female was a source of great confusion for me. Between my family, my friends and societal norms, coupled with my own mixed up sexual feelings, I made plenty of mistakes! But I also learned! After many years of in-fighting with myself I simply came to accept who and what I was, me! I can not take full credit, however, for it was through my personal growth and an experience I had as a young boy that I gained my current perspective!
While I agree that it is too bad about the thinking evolution of our "civilized society", IMO it’s actually kind of sad really, I originally hoped to assist in the advancement of human evolution and make a difference but I'm afraid I gave up on my plan to re-educate the masses long ago. It seems our “civil society” has not made much progress since Christ cleared the temple! I firmly believe that discrimination of any person by any other person, regardless of the reason, is always not good! Even "wrong thinking people" have a story and they deserve to at least be heard! All prayers are answered, sometimes the answer is no. Life IS finite!
I'm flattered to be considered a "female"!
Friday, March 28, 2014
Well, the story never seems to end because it's back in the news!
This time the story reads; DOJ Trains Cops to Work With Transgender People. WASHINGTON, March 27, 2014, By ERIC TUCKER Associated Press (AP)
From the published report:
The Justice Department launched a program Thursday to train local police departments to better respond to transgender individuals, a population authorities say is disproportionately harmed by violence.
The new initiative is aimed at helping police identify hate crimes and build trust with a type of community that law enforcement officials say is too often reluctant to report crimes.
"It's clear that such a training is as necessary as it is overdue," Associate Attorney General Tony West said at a ceremony unveiling the program. "Because too often, in too many places, we know that transgender victims are discouraged from reporting hate crimes and hate violence due to their past negative interactions with and perceptions of law enforcement."
The training effort is being overseen by the department's Community Relations Service, which was established under the Civil Rights Act of 1964 (this is my emphasis, 1964!) and works with communities to prevent and respond to hate crimes.
The initiative comes as police departments face scrutiny over their responsiveness to crimes against transgender people. In Washington, D.C., for instance, Police Chief Cathy Lanier acknowledged this year in response to a task force's report that the department needed to do more to build trust with the city's transgender community.
Deputy Attorney General James Cole said it was unacceptable that transgender people don't report crimes against them "based on the community's fears about law enforcement's support and perceptions."
"This is not a result that can or will be tolerated by the Department of Justice, and it runs counter to the very role your community public safety officials want to promote," Cole said.
He cited a national transgender discrimination survey published in 2011 in which large percentages of transgender individuals reported having attempted suicide, having been physically assaulted and having lost a job for bias-related reasons.
The Community Relations Service has regional offices around the country that will offer the training to police departments. The lesson plans includes suggestions for confronting bullying in schools as well as lists of do's — such as asking a person for his or her preferred gender pronoun — and don'ts, such as using the term "transvestite" or asking whether the person has had sex-change surgery.
Tiq Milan, a senior media strategist and spokesman for GLAAD, said the training program was a step toward correcting a relationship between police and transgender individuals that is fraught with mistrust.
"Cops will deal with trans folks and assume because you're trans, then in some kind of way you've caused this kind of violence on you," he said.
Harper Jean Tobin, who as policy director at the National Center for Transgender Equality helped design and model the program, also said she thought it was a good idea but cautioned that training by itself would not mend the relationship. She said there was more work that needed to be done in areas such as guaranteeing respect for transgender people who are taken into custody or being questioned by police.
"You can't train your way out of this problem. It's one piece of the puzzle. It's one tool that we can use," she said. Really?
Back in 2013, this same story was run in many news agencies under different titles. One such story took place in Connecticut City entitled; No Bias Against Transgender Cop. NEW HAVEN, Conn., March 27, 2014, By JOHN CHRISTOFFERSEN (AP) Associated Press
From the Associated Press:
An investigation by a Connecticut city has found no evidence that a transgender police officer was subject to discrimination or a hostile work environment.
Francesca Quaranta (try Google) was born male and had hormone therapy to become female. She decided to tell her colleagues in 2012 (2012!) about the change and tried to slowly adjust her appearance to allow for a gradual transition. She said she was ordered to remove her earrings even though female officers have been allowed to wear them. She initially was allowed to wear a wig but was later told it was not in compliance with policy and was disciplined in writing. This was published near the end of the article.
She disputed an account by the city that, [she] Quaranta, did not want to wear one of the wigs approved by the chief and wore unapproved wigs and that she wore hoop earrings on patrol in violation of the rules. She said she also faced more scrutiny of her work performance with supervisors questioning her response time even to non-emergencies, such as an illegally parked car.
The city denies her allegations saying any discipline or warnings were warranted and the mayor said the city is looking forward to Quaranto returning to work as soon as possible.
Odd he would use the male pronoun but nothing new here, and I also have to ask; Returning?
Middletown Police Officer Quaranta has alleged that while her colleagues were initially supportive she began to face hostility from some and their treatment had become so bad she went on paid leave. She filed a complaint last year with the state Commission on Human Rights and Opportunities, which is still pending. Meanwhile, city human relations officials investigated her claim and now say they found no evidence of discrimination.
"While officer Quaranta's transgender transition is a new experience for her and the Middletown Police Department, it is believed that the department is handling her transition in a professional manner," Faith Jackson, the city's human relations director, wrote in a letter to the mayor.
Mayor Daniel Drew said he and Police Chief William McKenna made it clear Quaranta was to receive equal treatment and supervising officers received training on the issue. The mayor said a sergeant also was given a 10-day unpaid suspension over a remark he made about her. (NOTE: the remark was not made public!) "We've taken this very seriously from day one and will continue to take it seriously," he said.
Quaranta said Thursday she disagrees with the city's findings and was not surprised, saying officials want to protect the city from liability. "I'm hoping that the state of Connecticut is much more open minded and actually looks at documents and actually listens to what I'm saying," Quaranta said.
A Middletown police officer since 2004, (since 2004! that's almost 8 years at the time she filed!) she said she loves the job but isn't sure she can return to the department. "I think the harassment will just continue," she said. "Actually I think it will be much worse this time."
From me; I read about this on-line and thought I'd add my "spin".
The word "express" or the term "expression" with regard to sex does not appear in any law or policy to date. Not one, none! Laws prohibiting general discrimination or bullying or out-right physical attacks are all over the place, but not one of these laws says anything based on gender expression. IMO, I don't have to wonder why that is!
Gender "expression" is a unique can of worms, it is very different from plain vanilla gender and is seen as fraut with problematic notions. IMO, anti-discrimination laws established in most US cities and states do not protect people from anything anyway because laws do not protect, period! That would be like saying, more pencils will make smarter people. Some how I don't think so!
These anti-discrimination laws merely add an additional layer to an already established law which in most cases carries its own penalty. That most people who would violate the original law already know of the penalties and layers of the "new" law but they simply don't care. Murder of a human by use of a golf club does not enhance the plain murder law, it merely adds another layer to it. Murder is merely an example I use and not meant to be representative of all humans, but murders still happen! Being a decidedly femme dressed in any female outfit (let alone a sexy one!) won't stop a guy, or guys, from leading me into an alleyway under pretense and they may not have my best female abilities in mind!
Laws, regardless of how they're worded, will not change a person's heart, in short, they will NOT amend an attitude nor will they positively impact upon negative mind sets. Martin Luther King, Jr. is quoted as saying, "Morality cannot be legislated, but behavior can be regulated. Judicial decrees may not change the heart, but they can restrain the heartless." I would have to disagree with the good doctor King! I would say ask the untold number of cross dressers killed every day. That's a very long list and it's extremely sad! It's a waste! I am a mtf cross dresser and I dress in a fashion that "asks for it", I've experienced being put in a hospital because I received a very brutal beating!
It's also my humble opinion that Barry McGuire said it best; "legislation alone, won't bring integration." As Cross Dressers, of either sex, we can not expect anyone to be our advocates. Consequently, even non-expressive gay people face one form or another of discrimination in nearly every aspect of their daily lives. I know I face a type of discrimination every time my landlord looks at me simply because he suspects I might be gay and willing to do him! IMO, it would probably only embolden him were I to dress in 'sex kitten' attire at the time he saw me. FYI, when I go shopping everyone seems to know I'm gay.
A new policy was implemented by USAID and represents an impressive step forward. But because the policy is not mandatory and does not have the full force of the law behind it, employees in organizations contracting with USAID have absolutely no remedy if the policy is violated. Kudos, I guess, to USAID for having such a policy but a policy which is NOT mandatory? This leads me to question what good is it to have it? To simply be able to say you've got such a policy? At the risk of coming across as bitter, and by their own admission, I think USAID has convinced me they're bought and paid for.
In order to protect the rights of transgendered people (trans-gendered means cross sexed persons in this post) the National Center for Transgender Equality (NCTE) and the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force (NGLTF) continues to urge President Obama to issue an executive order prohibiting all federal contractors from discriminating on the basis of sexual orientation AND gender identity. Federal employers! Nothing is aimed at the civilian world! People are people and orientation and identity does make a difference regardless of where you are!
It is also thought that the repeal of "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" is a first step in the right direction but may I remind you that we are talking about a community of gays and lesbians in the military only, NOT persons who feel the need to represent as other than "established" sex, to wit; cross dressers! Cross dressing for either a male or a female is considered a crime, especially in the military and civilian worlds, as it might be used as a mere disguise, a way to change one's appearance. It does change one's appearance and how one chooses to express one's-self, IS affected and, unfortunately that is negatively.
Interestingly, the NCTE and NGLTF also released a finding from a report back in 2001, it was entitled; Injustice at Every Turn. Very nice title, BTW, and while this report confirmed the pervasive and severe discrimination faced by trans-GENDERED people, it did NOT investigate the situation for those who simply choose to "express" as the opposite sex. Out of a small sample of nearly 6,500 TRANS-PERSONS the report found they experienced high levels of discrimination in fields of employment, housing, health care, education, legal, and even in their own families! And you thought is was just you, silly! The full report can be found online, just Google it.
I think of this as a kind of discrimination in itself, apparently after many years very little has changed within this civil and polite society. People!
Transgender people may also have additional identities that affect the types of discrimination they experience. Simply said, experiencing discrimination of any kind adds significantly to psychological stresses and often includes people from sundry racial, ethnic, or religious and minority backgrounds. Often times individuals are left to wonder whether they were discriminated against solely because of their socio-cultural identity, their race or some other thing, or was it JUST their gender EXPRESSION? Possibly it may have been a combination!
So, how can one possibly know? Do you ask? Do you dare? Do you even bother or do you just accept the discrimination and move on? I merely accept it and move on! I'm sure none of those questions will ever be asked and needless to say never answered.
Worth noting, and also according to that same study from 2001, while discrimination is quite pervasive for many trans-gender people the intersection of anti-transgender bias and persistence against it, is also where racism is especially severe. African American transgendered individuals fare far worse than all other transgender populations examined. Combined! All! I find that very note worthy indeed, and I also find it quite confusing in view of the fact most of my "admires" are men of color. Interesting!
The report goes on to say many transgender people, regardless of race, are the targets of hate crimes (duh!) but there are simply no laws addressing the issue of the victim being crossed dressed and expressing the opposite to how they were born when the "hate" happens. I guess a "transgender person" is considered a special victim of a unique and subtle form of hate! This kind of discrimination usually includes everything from a disapproving look, an extreme or mean or loud verbal attack, a statement about specific body parts, or the typical out-right physical attack. The report claims this kind of discrimination usually produces some level of discomfort. Discomfort? I mean, honestly, say it ain't so!
It's my opinion that violent people who engage in this type of behavior are usually nothing less than invasive, vulgar, total bruts, so, where does it all end? My guess is when general society decides it ends, I don't recommend you hold your breath. While my saying, 'Be the kind of woman YOU want to be!' sounds good, it's not going to happen any time soon within this current society and it's not going to happen without strife.
We are all humans but I am the kind of human who clings to the idea mind-sets will eventually change, hopefully sooner rather than later. I know I can't speak for others but I clearly don't have a death wish and I do feel I'm female!
Please leave a comment or email me at Billie.TV5@gmail.com, let me know what YOU think.
From the published report:
The Justice Department launched a program Thursday to train local police departments to better respond to transgender individuals, a population authorities say is disproportionately harmed by violence.
The new initiative is aimed at helping police identify hate crimes and build trust with a type of community that law enforcement officials say is too often reluctant to report crimes.
"It's clear that such a training is as necessary as it is overdue," Associate Attorney General Tony West said at a ceremony unveiling the program. "Because too often, in too many places, we know that transgender victims are discouraged from reporting hate crimes and hate violence due to their past negative interactions with and perceptions of law enforcement."
The training effort is being overseen by the department's Community Relations Service, which was established under the Civil Rights Act of 1964 (this is my emphasis, 1964!) and works with communities to prevent and respond to hate crimes.
The initiative comes as police departments face scrutiny over their responsiveness to crimes against transgender people. In Washington, D.C., for instance, Police Chief Cathy Lanier acknowledged this year in response to a task force's report that the department needed to do more to build trust with the city's transgender community.
Deputy Attorney General James Cole said it was unacceptable that transgender people don't report crimes against them "based on the community's fears about law enforcement's support and perceptions."
"This is not a result that can or will be tolerated by the Department of Justice, and it runs counter to the very role your community public safety officials want to promote," Cole said.
He cited a national transgender discrimination survey published in 2011 in which large percentages of transgender individuals reported having attempted suicide, having been physically assaulted and having lost a job for bias-related reasons.
The Community Relations Service has regional offices around the country that will offer the training to police departments. The lesson plans includes suggestions for confronting bullying in schools as well as lists of do's — such as asking a person for his or her preferred gender pronoun — and don'ts, such as using the term "transvestite" or asking whether the person has had sex-change surgery.
Tiq Milan, a senior media strategist and spokesman for GLAAD, said the training program was a step toward correcting a relationship between police and transgender individuals that is fraught with mistrust.
"Cops will deal with trans folks and assume because you're trans, then in some kind of way you've caused this kind of violence on you," he said.
Harper Jean Tobin, who as policy director at the National Center for Transgender Equality helped design and model the program, also said she thought it was a good idea but cautioned that training by itself would not mend the relationship. She said there was more work that needed to be done in areas such as guaranteeing respect for transgender people who are taken into custody or being questioned by police.
"You can't train your way out of this problem. It's one piece of the puzzle. It's one tool that we can use," she said. Really?
Back in 2013, this same story was run in many news agencies under different titles. One such story took place in Connecticut City entitled; No Bias Against Transgender Cop. NEW HAVEN, Conn., March 27, 2014, By JOHN CHRISTOFFERSEN (AP) Associated Press
From the Associated Press:
An investigation by a Connecticut city has found no evidence that a transgender police officer was subject to discrimination or a hostile work environment.
Francesca Quaranta (try Google) was born male and had hormone therapy to become female. She decided to tell her colleagues in 2012 (2012!) about the change and tried to slowly adjust her appearance to allow for a gradual transition. She said she was ordered to remove her earrings even though female officers have been allowed to wear them. She initially was allowed to wear a wig but was later told it was not in compliance with policy and was disciplined in writing. This was published near the end of the article.
She disputed an account by the city that, [she] Quaranta, did not want to wear one of the wigs approved by the chief and wore unapproved wigs and that she wore hoop earrings on patrol in violation of the rules. She said she also faced more scrutiny of her work performance with supervisors questioning her response time even to non-emergencies, such as an illegally parked car.
The city denies her allegations saying any discipline or warnings were warranted and the mayor said the city is looking forward to Quaranto returning to work as soon as possible.
Odd he would use the male pronoun but nothing new here, and I also have to ask; Returning?
Middletown Police Officer Quaranta has alleged that while her colleagues were initially supportive she began to face hostility from some and their treatment had become so bad she went on paid leave. She filed a complaint last year with the state Commission on Human Rights and Opportunities, which is still pending. Meanwhile, city human relations officials investigated her claim and now say they found no evidence of discrimination.
"While officer Quaranta's transgender transition is a new experience for her and the Middletown Police Department, it is believed that the department is handling her transition in a professional manner," Faith Jackson, the city's human relations director, wrote in a letter to the mayor.
Mayor Daniel Drew said he and Police Chief William McKenna made it clear Quaranta was to receive equal treatment and supervising officers received training on the issue. The mayor said a sergeant also was given a 10-day unpaid suspension over a remark he made about her. (NOTE: the remark was not made public!) "We've taken this very seriously from day one and will continue to take it seriously," he said.
Quaranta said Thursday she disagrees with the city's findings and was not surprised, saying officials want to protect the city from liability. "I'm hoping that the state of Connecticut is much more open minded and actually looks at documents and actually listens to what I'm saying," Quaranta said.
A Middletown police officer since 2004, (since 2004! that's almost 8 years at the time she filed!) she said she loves the job but isn't sure she can return to the department. "I think the harassment will just continue," she said. "Actually I think it will be much worse this time."
From me; I read about this on-line and thought I'd add my "spin".
The word "express" or the term "expression" with regard to sex does not appear in any law or policy to date. Not one, none! Laws prohibiting general discrimination or bullying or out-right physical attacks are all over the place, but not one of these laws says anything based on gender expression. IMO, I don't have to wonder why that is!
Gender "expression" is a unique can of worms, it is very different from plain vanilla gender and is seen as fraut with problematic notions. IMO, anti-discrimination laws established in most US cities and states do not protect people from anything anyway because laws do not protect, period! That would be like saying, more pencils will make smarter people. Some how I don't think so!
These anti-discrimination laws merely add an additional layer to an already established law which in most cases carries its own penalty. That most people who would violate the original law already know of the penalties and layers of the "new" law but they simply don't care. Murder of a human by use of a golf club does not enhance the plain murder law, it merely adds another layer to it. Murder is merely an example I use and not meant to be representative of all humans, but murders still happen! Being a decidedly femme dressed in any female outfit (let alone a sexy one!) won't stop a guy, or guys, from leading me into an alleyway under pretense and they may not have my best female abilities in mind!
Laws, regardless of how they're worded, will not change a person's heart, in short, they will NOT amend an attitude nor will they positively impact upon negative mind sets. Martin Luther King, Jr. is quoted as saying, "Morality cannot be legislated, but behavior can be regulated. Judicial decrees may not change the heart, but they can restrain the heartless." I would have to disagree with the good doctor King! I would say ask the untold number of cross dressers killed every day. That's a very long list and it's extremely sad! It's a waste! I am a mtf cross dresser and I dress in a fashion that "asks for it", I've experienced being put in a hospital because I received a very brutal beating!
It's also my humble opinion that Barry McGuire said it best; "legislation alone, won't bring integration." As Cross Dressers, of either sex, we can not expect anyone to be our advocates. Consequently, even non-expressive gay people face one form or another of discrimination in nearly every aspect of their daily lives. I know I face a type of discrimination every time my landlord looks at me simply because he suspects I might be gay and willing to do him! IMO, it would probably only embolden him were I to dress in 'sex kitten' attire at the time he saw me. FYI, when I go shopping everyone seems to know I'm gay.
A new policy was implemented by USAID and represents an impressive step forward. But because the policy is not mandatory and does not have the full force of the law behind it, employees in organizations contracting with USAID have absolutely no remedy if the policy is violated. Kudos, I guess, to USAID for having such a policy but a policy which is NOT mandatory? This leads me to question what good is it to have it? To simply be able to say you've got such a policy? At the risk of coming across as bitter, and by their own admission, I think USAID has convinced me they're bought and paid for.
In order to protect the rights of transgendered people (trans-gendered means cross sexed persons in this post) the National Center for Transgender Equality (NCTE) and the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force (NGLTF) continues to urge President Obama to issue an executive order prohibiting all federal contractors from discriminating on the basis of sexual orientation AND gender identity. Federal employers! Nothing is aimed at the civilian world! People are people and orientation and identity does make a difference regardless of where you are!
It is also thought that the repeal of "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" is a first step in the right direction but may I remind you that we are talking about a community of gays and lesbians in the military only, NOT persons who feel the need to represent as other than "established" sex, to wit; cross dressers! Cross dressing for either a male or a female is considered a crime, especially in the military and civilian worlds, as it might be used as a mere disguise, a way to change one's appearance. It does change one's appearance and how one chooses to express one's-self, IS affected and, unfortunately that is negatively.
Interestingly, the NCTE and NGLTF also released a finding from a report back in 2001, it was entitled; Injustice at Every Turn. Very nice title, BTW, and while this report confirmed the pervasive and severe discrimination faced by trans-GENDERED people, it did NOT investigate the situation for those who simply choose to "express" as the opposite sex. Out of a small sample of nearly 6,500 TRANS-PERSONS the report found they experienced high levels of discrimination in fields of employment, housing, health care, education, legal, and even in their own families! And you thought is was just you, silly! The full report can be found online, just Google it.
I think of this as a kind of discrimination in itself, apparently after many years very little has changed within this civil and polite society. People!
Transgender people may also have additional identities that affect the types of discrimination they experience. Simply said, experiencing discrimination of any kind adds significantly to psychological stresses and often includes people from sundry racial, ethnic, or religious and minority backgrounds. Often times individuals are left to wonder whether they were discriminated against solely because of their socio-cultural identity, their race or some other thing, or was it JUST their gender EXPRESSION? Possibly it may have been a combination!
So, how can one possibly know? Do you ask? Do you dare? Do you even bother or do you just accept the discrimination and move on? I merely accept it and move on! I'm sure none of those questions will ever be asked and needless to say never answered.
Worth noting, and also according to that same study from 2001, while discrimination is quite pervasive for many trans-gender people the intersection of anti-transgender bias and persistence against it, is also where racism is especially severe. African American transgendered individuals fare far worse than all other transgender populations examined. Combined! All! I find that very note worthy indeed, and I also find it quite confusing in view of the fact most of my "admires" are men of color. Interesting!
The report goes on to say many transgender people, regardless of race, are the targets of hate crimes (duh!) but there are simply no laws addressing the issue of the victim being crossed dressed and expressing the opposite to how they were born when the "hate" happens. I guess a "transgender person" is considered a special victim of a unique and subtle form of hate! This kind of discrimination usually includes everything from a disapproving look, an extreme or mean or loud verbal attack, a statement about specific body parts, or the typical out-right physical attack. The report claims this kind of discrimination usually produces some level of discomfort. Discomfort? I mean, honestly, say it ain't so!
It's my opinion that violent people who engage in this type of behavior are usually nothing less than invasive, vulgar, total bruts, so, where does it all end? My guess is when general society decides it ends, I don't recommend you hold your breath. While my saying, 'Be the kind of woman YOU want to be!' sounds good, it's not going to happen any time soon within this current society and it's not going to happen without strife.
We are all humans but I am the kind of human who clings to the idea mind-sets will eventually change, hopefully sooner rather than later. I know I can't speak for others but I clearly don't have a death wish and I do feel I'm female!
Please leave a comment or email me at Billie.TV5@gmail.com, let me know what YOU think.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
My 'about me'
Like Jesus said,".. unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Before Abraham was, I am. Then took they up stones to cast at him: but Jesus hid himself, and went out of the temple, going through the midst of them, and so passed by." - John 8:58-59.
Well, I did a similar thing but I was born a male who became a female. I dressed as a woman and often walked in front of other men! I didn't realize it at the time but decided it was the only natural thing for me to do. I later dressed as a female sex-pot and along the way I passed! Easy, well, maybe not so easy.
To illustrate my point, the Food Stamp program, WIC, cell phones, and LHEAP, are all run by the government. The people who work in the various departments of Agriculture, Parks and Recreation and the Department of the Interior all agree, it is unwise to feed wild animals! They say that because those "wild animals" may become dependant upon the free food given away by we humans and will no longer be able to provide for themselves. That's just common sense if you ask me. But what are we humans if not a kind of "wild animal"? I know that while we humans may be higher in the hierarchy of intelligence, we're not necessarily the highest on the food chain. While many younger transvestites like to think we're exceptions to that rule, we're not. General society proves it. While the idea of dressing female as a man comes with some inherent dangers, I find it both challenging and interesting at the same time.
I have "lines" on my hands that I've read about and have been told about by professional palmists and what they say is, what I have in my palm print are lines of protection! I have these lines on both my hands. When they first appeared I have no idea. What I've noticed, and after being told by professional palmists, is that there is no possible way to produce these marks naturally. Not by wearing a bracelet, not by wearing rings, not by having your nails done, not by holding your hands in a particular manner and I do all of that. There is simply no way to produce these marks naturally, none! At least none that I know of. I surmise the only way to get them is to be born with them, kind of akin to being born gay, we don't have a choice!
While I feel these lines may apply to me as a MTF transvestite, I'm in agreement that the lines on my hands represent a kind of "protection". They (the lines) have kept me from doing dangerous things to myself throughout my life despite my desire. Maybe they are why I'm still disease free and alive! I know I've behaved poorly and I don't deserve to be disease free or alive, ergo, I must have led a protected life! I never felt this as strong as I do today. I admit I have no other clue.
Everything is dependant upon some other thing, the Butterfly Effect springs to my mind, and is a no-brainer. Everything in the life of a human is controlled, cell phones and food as an example while in other cases it's our taxes. These taxes are taken from us and spent on what-ever the takers want without consulting us as to what that may be! That ought to be another no-brainer. I have an extremely limited income and it is dependant upon this same government but I have enough. Despite my un-approving wife who divorced me because of my desires. So, in the looming doom of this economy coupled with what politians have done with our dollars in the past, I plan to trade my talents for things I will need should that "need" ever arise. End of the Earth and all that.
My chief concern is obviously makeup. I use lots of that in order to pass and it does get worn off during sexual abuse. My heels, nylons, and dresses, along with other things I use to create the illusion of being a female, are least not secondary and they are somewhat enduring. Those things can be used over and over, and they usually are on a daily basis, but the list never ends, it simply goes on and on. I only accept tips for my "services rendered" to help me look more like a woman, I'm a whore, NOT a prostitute! In addition to all the barter and future survival skills you can learn there is one other skill and that skill is how to be charitable. It’s not a hard thing to learn. Give "it" away and see what happens, you may get a pleasant surprise! To be sure, you're gonna become very popular!
IMO, what I have learned and done has been very appropriate for me. My dress and makeup merely reflect what I am; a man who happens to enjoy being fucked by other men while wearing feminine clothes. Because I feel I'm a female I do what merely comes natural. I have the willingness to perform sexually as a woman for a man and I know I only have 2 out of 3 things a GG has. I have no pussy for an example. Because of that, and my mind set, I do what most GGs don't want to, so in a sense having low morals and low self esteem coupled with a guilt free and clear mind, helps me be a whore. Does that make me a psychopath? I think not but it helps allow me to have wanton sex! I fully know there is no way for me to become pregnant but I can still catch an STD, HIV or AIDS or I can be killed out-right by a nare-do-well. Just think sex from multiple strange men and the Day of Rememberance. To that end, I must be very careful and somewhat selective. I may be a male to female transvestite and wanton "bitch" but I do not have a death-wish!
I've posted an 'about me' before but I will re-post in the hope I'll say something that lets you get to know me. Not many people know the real me. No, I'm not going to post my real "male" name, although some trans people already know it, or my current address as I'm rather content being as popular as I am. Yes, I'm a "fake" woman in my apartment for any man (admirer) who wants me despite being a man myself. I wish to tell you how my life has shaped me into the woman I am today.
Gerard Way said, "One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching." IMO, that's both sage advice and eventual.
I heard or read somewhere (I'm sure it was regarding extraterrestrial aliens or UFOs) that “When you see it, you will believe it.” However, an equally well known person turned that around and said, “When you believe it, you will see it!” A true conundrum if ever there was one but UFOs are very controversial and everyone has an opinion about them. Every one! The same can be said, and often is, about trannies as everybody has an opinion about us, too. Everybody! I just happen to believe I'm in the latter camp.
I also read Buddha has a saying, “All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the World”. Well, what Buddha said made me re-think my idea about my desire to be a female. At first, I thought being a female was merely in my head, I simply made it what it is. But then I asked myself; Why would I do that? I know I didn't feel I was gay (though I could have been) and the question of my being gay was dismissed simply because I've felt I was female at the ripe old age of six. The only answer was that deep down inside I really felt I was female!
As an FYI, I currently play video games, first person shooter (FPS) and role playing games (RPG), I do this simply to remind myself I'm a man. All the testosterone that goes into making these video games is almost palatable, just look at the women portrayed, and it lets me at least feel like I'm a man. Real women don't make me feel I'm a man! It may be that I merely "think" I'm a woman and while Buddha's saying is still a very interesting one to me, I'm driven to be a woman. Regardless of what anyone thinks of me I admit, while I'm a bit turned off by society I'm not confused by society, it is what it is, it's people and they're entitled to their opinions. I am confused, however, by the Bible thumpers. Tolerance and all that.
As you may have gathered, or may not, I'm a male to female transvestite, a cross dresser. Some say I am an "un-decided" cross dresser and a few want me to transition to a "full woman". Just one more example of the many opinions I mentioned. Allow me to explain a first about myself; At my advanced age of 62 plus I have no plans to seek corrective reconstruction surgery (SRS). Not only am I that small but "corrective" surgery has the implication something is wrong, I heartily disagree! I have never felt the need for hormone replacement therapy (HRT) and I've "performed" as a full-time woman since I was ayongster, so I guess I'm also lucky in that department. I am very aware I'm very under endowed as a man and as the joke goes, I would never call my tiny "pee-pee" a cock! I see it as more of a large clit, my dick is very small. Despite what I do, and the way I usually dress, I feel very comfortable with me! I'm also considered a whore by many fellow MTF cross dressers and quite a few GGs, that's their opinion of me. I think they're just jealous, that's my opinion of them!
"Wrath is cruel and anger is outrageous, but who is able to stand before envy?", that's from Proverbs 27:1-4 in the King James bible but I don't pretend to know what it means or what bearing it has. I do know I'm not into scat or blood!
My life is not all that much different from others like me. I drink a couple cups of half-cafe coffee while reading my Kindle, I then select my dress for the day, take a shower and put on my makeup. When I get dressed I feel strongly I have no other purpose than to have sex with men which is why I dress the way I do. I know I can't get pregnant, I don't have the plumbing for that, and most of my dates know that. If I'm really lucky, (this is just me!) I'll get passed around, "fun" at it's finest! I do get "man messed" on my face quite often and I do feel a kind of hurt in my man-pussy but that's because some men who fuck me are very enthusiastic! As an FYI, all men are big and they do hurt me but only for a brief time. I know their hurt isn't permanent and I know I absolutely love to have sex with men! So, why is that?
To answer that question let me say I have an insatiable desire to be a female and I simply behave as one, albeit it is said with questionable morals and low self-esteem. More opinions! I see myself as simply an unquenchable he/she cross dressing "bitch" and I think I know what is meant by the word "bitch". I also think I understand the he/she part!
I'm a queer who bends for men and I absolutely love being the center of attention, not surprising I also love turning their heads! That means I wear very short skirts, heels with nylons, and wear lots of makeup. Men enjoy seeing a woman looking like me and that's what I want to project, it's what I feel I am. I'm not sure how simple, or dumb, that makes me but society would have me behaving badly as a boy behind closed doors only and I would happily do that anyway, I don't need to wear a dress! But dressing like a "lady" in public when I'm still a man is a trick. Or is it? That is very confusing to me! I only have two out of three things a GG has and I willingly want to use them, so what's so wrong about that?
Along my journey of my becoming a male to female tranny I have come to realize I'm a cum-whore. Some say that's sad but it's true nonetheless. I usually ask "dates" to say they "love" me as they unload or just after they cum in me but many dates simply refuse. I understand because I know what we do is not "love" by any stretch! I know what "love" really is! Most dates say they enjoy letting me make "love" to them which I call it simply because it sounds nice. Unless he wants me to use other words!
Semen, which is pure protein and only a man (regardless of his endowment or race) can give it to me, is like chocolate, I like it! While I care less about cock size, (in fact smaller is better as far as I'm concerned!) I do care that all cum is spent inside me. Well, most of it, some of it can end up on my face! Regardless if you just put your dick in my mouth and have me jack you off, or fuck me in my man-pussy, as long as some of your cum gets in me I do not have a problem! And yes, I prefer "bare-back" so I can taste it and I do swallow! The only thing I demand of you (or ask) is, before I swallow you tell me you're disease free! I know I don't have the where-with-all to check you medically so I rely on you to tell me. I am clean (at least my doctor tells me I am STD free) and I wish to remain that way!
I'm fully aware I'm a male to female cross dresser who can catch an STD by simply sucking a cock. In fact, I'm sure I'll catch an STD, HIV or AIDS one day, but until I do I promise to be your suck and fuck bitch for the few moments of sex we have together and I promise not to talk with you about it afterward no matter how it goes, ever! Many men who have experienced me as a woman have told me I'm a cum whore, so I guess it must be true! But then again, that's just their opinion of me. My experience is that the majority of my dates are black, not because they are well "hung" but simply because they seem to be more accepting of a "girl" like me. If they want to fuck my man-pussy that's OK because I let them and they only hurt in the beginning, I'll get over it I am a woman!
So, how does a born boy go from being just a boy to a wanton girl? I first have to tell you some history about myself. I apologize up front for the long-ness of the post.
Well, I did a similar thing but I was born a male who became a female. I dressed as a woman and often walked in front of other men! I didn't realize it at the time but decided it was the only natural thing for me to do. I later dressed as a female sex-pot and along the way I passed! Easy, well, maybe not so easy.
To illustrate my point, the Food Stamp program, WIC, cell phones, and LHEAP, are all run by the government. The people who work in the various departments of Agriculture, Parks and Recreation and the Department of the Interior all agree, it is unwise to feed wild animals! They say that because those "wild animals" may become dependant upon the free food given away by we humans and will no longer be able to provide for themselves. That's just common sense if you ask me. But what are we humans if not a kind of "wild animal"? I know that while we humans may be higher in the hierarchy of intelligence, we're not necessarily the highest on the food chain. While many younger transvestites like to think we're exceptions to that rule, we're not. General society proves it. While the idea of dressing female as a man comes with some inherent dangers, I find it both challenging and interesting at the same time.
I have "lines" on my hands that I've read about and have been told about by professional palmists and what they say is, what I have in my palm print are lines of protection! I have these lines on both my hands. When they first appeared I have no idea. What I've noticed, and after being told by professional palmists, is that there is no possible way to produce these marks naturally. Not by wearing a bracelet, not by wearing rings, not by having your nails done, not by holding your hands in a particular manner and I do all of that. There is simply no way to produce these marks naturally, none! At least none that I know of. I surmise the only way to get them is to be born with them, kind of akin to being born gay, we don't have a choice!
While I feel these lines may apply to me as a MTF transvestite, I'm in agreement that the lines on my hands represent a kind of "protection". They (the lines) have kept me from doing dangerous things to myself throughout my life despite my desire. Maybe they are why I'm still disease free and alive! I know I've behaved poorly and I don't deserve to be disease free or alive, ergo, I must have led a protected life! I never felt this as strong as I do today. I admit I have no other clue.
Everything is dependant upon some other thing, the Butterfly Effect springs to my mind, and is a no-brainer. Everything in the life of a human is controlled, cell phones and food as an example while in other cases it's our taxes. These taxes are taken from us and spent on what-ever the takers want without consulting us as to what that may be! That ought to be another no-brainer. I have an extremely limited income and it is dependant upon this same government but I have enough. Despite my un-approving wife who divorced me because of my desires. So, in the looming doom of this economy coupled with what politians have done with our dollars in the past, I plan to trade my talents for things I will need should that "need" ever arise. End of the Earth and all that.
My chief concern is obviously makeup. I use lots of that in order to pass and it does get worn off during sexual abuse. My heels, nylons, and dresses, along with other things I use to create the illusion of being a female, are least not secondary and they are somewhat enduring. Those things can be used over and over, and they usually are on a daily basis, but the list never ends, it simply goes on and on. I only accept tips for my "services rendered" to help me look more like a woman, I'm a whore, NOT a prostitute! In addition to all the barter and future survival skills you can learn there is one other skill and that skill is how to be charitable. It’s not a hard thing to learn. Give "it" away and see what happens, you may get a pleasant surprise! To be sure, you're gonna become very popular!
IMO, what I have learned and done has been very appropriate for me. My dress and makeup merely reflect what I am; a man who happens to enjoy being fucked by other men while wearing feminine clothes. Because I feel I'm a female I do what merely comes natural. I have the willingness to perform sexually as a woman for a man and I know I only have 2 out of 3 things a GG has. I have no pussy for an example. Because of that, and my mind set, I do what most GGs don't want to, so in a sense having low morals and low self esteem coupled with a guilt free and clear mind, helps me be a whore. Does that make me a psychopath? I think not but it helps allow me to have wanton sex! I fully know there is no way for me to become pregnant but I can still catch an STD, HIV or AIDS or I can be killed out-right by a nare-do-well. Just think sex from multiple strange men and the Day of Rememberance. To that end, I must be very careful and somewhat selective. I may be a male to female transvestite and wanton "bitch" but I do not have a death-wish!
I've posted an 'about me' before but I will re-post in the hope I'll say something that lets you get to know me. Not many people know the real me. No, I'm not going to post my real "male" name, although some trans people already know it, or my current address as I'm rather content being as popular as I am. Yes, I'm a "fake" woman in my apartment for any man (admirer) who wants me despite being a man myself. I wish to tell you how my life has shaped me into the woman I am today.
Gerard Way said, "One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching." IMO, that's both sage advice and eventual.
I heard or read somewhere (I'm sure it was regarding extraterrestrial aliens or UFOs) that “When you see it, you will believe it.” However, an equally well known person turned that around and said, “When you believe it, you will see it!” A true conundrum if ever there was one but UFOs are very controversial and everyone has an opinion about them. Every one! The same can be said, and often is, about trannies as everybody has an opinion about us, too. Everybody! I just happen to believe I'm in the latter camp.
I also read Buddha has a saying, “All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we make the World”. Well, what Buddha said made me re-think my idea about my desire to be a female. At first, I thought being a female was merely in my head, I simply made it what it is. But then I asked myself; Why would I do that? I know I didn't feel I was gay (though I could have been) and the question of my being gay was dismissed simply because I've felt I was female at the ripe old age of six. The only answer was that deep down inside I really felt I was female!
As an FYI, I currently play video games, first person shooter (FPS) and role playing games (RPG), I do this simply to remind myself I'm a man. All the testosterone that goes into making these video games is almost palatable, just look at the women portrayed, and it lets me at least feel like I'm a man. Real women don't make me feel I'm a man! It may be that I merely "think" I'm a woman and while Buddha's saying is still a very interesting one to me, I'm driven to be a woman. Regardless of what anyone thinks of me I admit, while I'm a bit turned off by society I'm not confused by society, it is what it is, it's people and they're entitled to their opinions. I am confused, however, by the Bible thumpers. Tolerance and all that.
As you may have gathered, or may not, I'm a male to female transvestite, a cross dresser. Some say I am an "un-decided" cross dresser and a few want me to transition to a "full woman". Just one more example of the many opinions I mentioned. Allow me to explain a first about myself; At my advanced age of 62 plus I have no plans to seek corrective reconstruction surgery (SRS). Not only am I that small but "corrective" surgery has the implication something is wrong, I heartily disagree! I have never felt the need for hormone replacement therapy (HRT) and I've "performed" as a full-time woman since I was ayongster, so I guess I'm also lucky in that department. I am very aware I'm very under endowed as a man and as the joke goes, I would never call my tiny "pee-pee" a cock! I see it as more of a large clit, my dick is very small. Despite what I do, and the way I usually dress, I feel very comfortable with me! I'm also considered a whore by many fellow MTF cross dressers and quite a few GGs, that's their opinion of me. I think they're just jealous, that's my opinion of them!
"Wrath is cruel and anger is outrageous, but who is able to stand before envy?", that's from Proverbs 27:1-4 in the King James bible but I don't pretend to know what it means or what bearing it has. I do know I'm not into scat or blood!
My life is not all that much different from others like me. I drink a couple cups of half-cafe coffee while reading my Kindle, I then select my dress for the day, take a shower and put on my makeup. When I get dressed I feel strongly I have no other purpose than to have sex with men which is why I dress the way I do. I know I can't get pregnant, I don't have the plumbing for that, and most of my dates know that. If I'm really lucky, (this is just me!) I'll get passed around, "fun" at it's finest! I do get "man messed" on my face quite often and I do feel a kind of hurt in my man-pussy but that's because some men who fuck me are very enthusiastic! As an FYI, all men are big and they do hurt me but only for a brief time. I know their hurt isn't permanent and I know I absolutely love to have sex with men! So, why is that?
To answer that question let me say I have an insatiable desire to be a female and I simply behave as one, albeit it is said with questionable morals and low self-esteem. More opinions! I see myself as simply an unquenchable he/she cross dressing "bitch" and I think I know what is meant by the word "bitch". I also think I understand the he/she part!
I'm a queer who bends for men and I absolutely love being the center of attention, not surprising I also love turning their heads! That means I wear very short skirts, heels with nylons, and wear lots of makeup. Men enjoy seeing a woman looking like me and that's what I want to project, it's what I feel I am. I'm not sure how simple, or dumb, that makes me but society would have me behaving badly as a boy behind closed doors only and I would happily do that anyway, I don't need to wear a dress! But dressing like a "lady" in public when I'm still a man is a trick. Or is it? That is very confusing to me! I only have two out of three things a GG has and I willingly want to use them, so what's so wrong about that?
Along my journey of my becoming a male to female tranny I have come to realize I'm a cum-whore. Some say that's sad but it's true nonetheless. I usually ask "dates" to say they "love" me as they unload or just after they cum in me but many dates simply refuse. I understand because I know what we do is not "love" by any stretch! I know what "love" really is! Most dates say they enjoy letting me make "love" to them which I call it simply because it sounds nice. Unless he wants me to use other words!
Semen, which is pure protein and only a man (regardless of his endowment or race) can give it to me, is like chocolate, I like it! While I care less about cock size, (in fact smaller is better as far as I'm concerned!) I do care that all cum is spent inside me. Well, most of it, some of it can end up on my face! Regardless if you just put your dick in my mouth and have me jack you off, or fuck me in my man-pussy, as long as some of your cum gets in me I do not have a problem! And yes, I prefer "bare-back" so I can taste it and I do swallow! The only thing I demand of you (or ask) is, before I swallow you tell me you're disease free! I know I don't have the where-with-all to check you medically so I rely on you to tell me. I am clean (at least my doctor tells me I am STD free) and I wish to remain that way!
I'm fully aware I'm a male to female cross dresser who can catch an STD by simply sucking a cock. In fact, I'm sure I'll catch an STD, HIV or AIDS one day, but until I do I promise to be your suck and fuck bitch for the few moments of sex we have together and I promise not to talk with you about it afterward no matter how it goes, ever! Many men who have experienced me as a woman have told me I'm a cum whore, so I guess it must be true! But then again, that's just their opinion of me. My experience is that the majority of my dates are black, not because they are well "hung" but simply because they seem to be more accepting of a "girl" like me. If they want to fuck my man-pussy that's OK because I let them and they only hurt in the beginning, I'll get over it I am a woman!
So, how does a born boy go from being just a boy to a wanton girl? I first have to tell you some history about myself. I apologize up front for the long-ness of the post.
Monday, December 30, 2013
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